what i want: to go to the cider mill. to live in a state where i can where a hoodie year-round and be neither too hot nor too cold. to move to the east coast. to be done with school. a good electric guitar and amplifier. her. a dog to play with. a better understanding of things, in general. to go to meijer's with the trio for old time's sake. people to remember my birthday. a job with little or no responsibility. to be able to grow a full beard. to run again. arnold schwarzenegger to not be the governor of california. the balls to say what i feel. a little bit of free time every now and then. a hug. josh to be home. to be sung to sleep every night. to not drink as much. to talk without stuttering sometimes. to not stand like a gay man when i take orders, even though i'm straight. to get a decent job whenever it is that i get out of school. soulseek to be back up and running. to hang out with my family. to carve a pumpkin and flick the seeds and people. to have a christmas tree.
