signum

Here I am.... once again..... and I'll better stop rhyming before it starts to get ugly .
During the last three months I was confronted with every kind of mental pressure that exists in this damn wide world. Studying, at least in the first semester, isn't as funny as everybody thinks it is, especially when you have to deal with problems such as mine....
It's very hard to hear friends shouting at you because you didn't call or write them for two days. It's even harder when they don't understand that I have to study from 6 am to 6 pm (or longer). And the hardest thing is when you find out that the love of your life dumps you because you're not worth driving 300 km every two or three weeks to her.
I can say, and this without a doubt, that I have been living in permanent frustration for the last 3 months and I finally have to say that this time is over now. It simply has to be. Otherwise I'll destroy myself. I won't let the world around me get me down anymore. Life is fun.....
I am going to write four big tests in february and I already started learning and repeating what I already should know . It's amazing how comprehensive the material is that I have to repeat and get into my head. It's very good that I didn't allow me to take a break from learning during the past 3 months. Although there were many sad days I still grabbed my folders to learn, learn and learn. Otherwise it could be very hard to survive the tests. Well, I'm a fighter .
Sooo, I'll better get some chocolate now to have a nice evening. Sorry for not responding to mails, especially sorry to Adelina .

I'm off,
Sig

P(ost) S(criptum): and sorry for my english, I'll better start reading english books again....