sigh

lately im ALL ABOUT the color green...and BIG hair *sigh*

i left work early today. i felt sick, or so i said, but im not sure if it was as much sick as depression. *sigh* tried to come home and take a nap but i just couldnt stop worrying about my g-ma...so i visited her. she looks fine. she says she is in pain. i just dont know. i stayed for dinner and ended up napping on her couch until 8.

i got upset that the employees at 7-11 dont ID me anymore for cigarettes. i need to quit smoking...

im sinking farther into isolation...i think i need it. i keep hurting peoples feelings with my fickle instincts. i want no one. talking to chris today i realized what it is i do need. a friend...no one that will get attached...but a friend to cuddle with me. *sigh* and now every jealous fucker who reads this damned journal is calling me a bitch because i have so many people liking me and i feel sorry for myself because i dont want them. get over it i already know.

goodnight my darlings
-The Sigh