ok HELP!!!
im so cunfused and yet happy and still upset all at the same time. emotions are a bitch!
my friend jaysin just called me...the explantion of my relationship with jaysin will follow, please help me to decide what to do:
jaysin is a guy i went to one of my high schools with. (9th and 10th grades) after i moved i kept in contact with him through AIM and an occasional runnin at a mall or something. i always had a thing for him but never really had enough balls back then to hang out with him. well 3 weeks ago he's talking to me online and tells me he is moving 4 hours away for a job. i was upset to say the least. i figured "what the hell...might as well chill with the guy"... right?
OMG i practically fell in love. he spent his last two days in baltimore with me. sleeping next to him was like heaven. i didnt really want to believe it the day he left. i really didnt think about it and tried to forget about him. lol it didnt really work because he's been on my mind like crazy.
well i got a letter from him a few days ago...starting out with "ive been thinking about you alot since ive been here" and "the offer is up if you feel like running away here with me"...i pondered the idea and thats why i think ive had this urge to just up and leave lately. then today as im sitting on the couch wathcing a movie with my mom...HE CALLS. 2 hour long distance convo about how we miss each other but we both still avoided saying "i love you" lol
so now i have this big decision to make...everything ive been lusting after for the past year is now offered to me in one big nice package...
-an awesome, organized, sexy guy that wants to date me (or at least i would assume)
-a chance to get out of baltimore
-the chance to take a break from work and focus on my artwork (he said i could live there for free)
it just seems like its all coming to easy. im scared...something will go wrong...
so what do you think? am i a fool in love? or some crazy bitch whos about to fuck up her life?
im so cunfused and yet happy and still upset all at the same time. emotions are a bitch!
my friend jaysin just called me...the explantion of my relationship with jaysin will follow, please help me to decide what to do:
jaysin is a guy i went to one of my high schools with. (9th and 10th grades) after i moved i kept in contact with him through AIM and an occasional runnin at a mall or something. i always had a thing for him but never really had enough balls back then to hang out with him. well 3 weeks ago he's talking to me online and tells me he is moving 4 hours away for a job. i was upset to say the least. i figured "what the hell...might as well chill with the guy"... right?
OMG i practically fell in love. he spent his last two days in baltimore with me. sleeping next to him was like heaven. i didnt really want to believe it the day he left. i really didnt think about it and tried to forget about him. lol it didnt really work because he's been on my mind like crazy.
well i got a letter from him a few days ago...starting out with "ive been thinking about you alot since ive been here" and "the offer is up if you feel like running away here with me"...i pondered the idea and thats why i think ive had this urge to just up and leave lately. then today as im sitting on the couch wathcing a movie with my mom...HE CALLS. 2 hour long distance convo about how we miss each other but we both still avoided saying "i love you" lol
so now i have this big decision to make...everything ive been lusting after for the past year is now offered to me in one big nice package...
-an awesome, organized, sexy guy that wants to date me (or at least i would assume)
-a chance to get out of baltimore
-the chance to take a break from work and focus on my artwork (he said i could live there for free)
it just seems like its all coming to easy. im scared...something will go wrong...
so what do you think? am i a fool in love? or some crazy bitch whos about to fuck up her life?
but it would be hard to say no if i was in your shoes