Why is it!? when you start feeling okay about yourself, something comes along and makes you feel worse!!? I'm being shit on!! AGAIN!
I had a dream this afternoon (well, my version of night time) about an ex girlfriend and now I can't seem to get her out of my head. I sometimes think about her and get the feeling that I made a huge mistake by finishing things and now it all feels even more apparent. She was beautiful and all she wanted was some of my time, but at the time I had work commitment and very little money to go up and see her and for some reason I saw fit to finish it all just because she was getting on my nerves. I hope I never get the feeling that I'm too good for anyone without a valid reason. Now I'm just stuck here. I'd like to talk to her again but her older sister might still want to knock seven shades of shit out of me. She seemed to have taken the breakup harder than my ex did. I wonder what I should do. I've not spoken to her in about 6 or 7 years now but I'm sure I could get her number. I wonder if she's single. Maybe I should just leave it all to chance but would I spend the rest of my life just asking why? Maybe I've just gone crazy with lonlieness at not having a partner in life (alhtough I don't really feel lonely) but I'd just like to know. What's the worse that could happen? she could tell me to fuckoff? her sister might just set about me? I dunno. Maybe I should get a life and leave the past with the past.
Why ME!?
I had a dream this afternoon (well, my version of night time) about an ex girlfriend and now I can't seem to get her out of my head. I sometimes think about her and get the feeling that I made a huge mistake by finishing things and now it all feels even more apparent. She was beautiful and all she wanted was some of my time, but at the time I had work commitment and very little money to go up and see her and for some reason I saw fit to finish it all just because she was getting on my nerves. I hope I never get the feeling that I'm too good for anyone without a valid reason. Now I'm just stuck here. I'd like to talk to her again but her older sister might still want to knock seven shades of shit out of me. She seemed to have taken the breakup harder than my ex did. I wonder what I should do. I've not spoken to her in about 6 or 7 years now but I'm sure I could get her number. I wonder if she's single. Maybe I should just leave it all to chance but would I spend the rest of my life just asking why? Maybe I've just gone crazy with lonlieness at not having a partner in life (alhtough I don't really feel lonely) but I'd just like to know. What's the worse that could happen? she could tell me to fuckoff? her sister might just set about me? I dunno. Maybe I should get a life and leave the past with the past.
Why ME!?
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