sienna

Sorry it's been awhile since my last post. I have had sooooo much going on. I guess I'll pick up where my last blog left off...with the guy I was really excited to hang out with. Well, we hung out and I thought it went really well. He was really nice and easy to talk to...I felt so comfortable and on edge at the same time. Our parting kiss was true perfection for me...time stood still, there were goosebumps on my arm that was locked in his and all I could feel were his lips and the wind on the left side of my face. But I had to go and throw out the 'I miss you' card later that evening, and he's been distant ever since. I don't know if it's because of something I said/did that may have scared him, but I'm very open with my feelings and I need someone to be the same way. I don't need a ring on my finger or anything, but I also can't just hang around when I feel like someone's not interested. It's not fair to either one of us. I've learned that you can't make someone feel the same way you're feeling -- no matter how strong your feelings may be, it's just never gonna be enough. So I'll just have to carry on with my life. And it's not like I want to move onto "the next one." Actually, I don't even feel ready for a relationship as it is because I still have a lot of things to figure out about myself before I can make someone else happy. It was just a nice thought to feel like I had someone there who understood. *le sigh*

Anyways, as far as everything else is concerned: the move is going really well. My roommates are rad, the house is nice (minus the spider infestation) aaaannnd I've taken in a stray cat. I named her Moo Moo because she's white with black and brown spots, very 'cow-like.' I adore her. Ummm...let's see....I smoked pot for the first time ever last week. I was also downing Irish car bombs at the time so I was probably the happiest person on the planet, rolling around on the ground and hugging people I've never met. It was a good time. School starts on Monday...I'm kinda nervous because I'm already feeling things start to pick up schedule-wise, but I think it's going to be a good year for me. Here's hoping...