sidney

Well tonight Im a little intoxicated but my mind is very clear. So clear that I realized something that I should have a long time ago. I finally was able to speak my peace with someone that is very important to me. I love her and aprciate all that weve been through but, I just couldnt do it any more. I couldnt go on pretending that how she has been treeting people lately is ok. I kept telling myself that I wasnt losing her in till she moved away but, the truth is that I lost her long ago or maybe I never even knew her???? Even thought I question if it was ever genuine I will miss our friendship. I just wish that it didnt have to end like this. All of this is so crazy I feel guilty and relived all at the same time. Its a very confusing feeling.