sidleymack

hey phil,
okay, there's something i need to tell you even though this isn't the way i want to do it. if i had the choice, i'd prefer to tell you this face to face but, i figure it'd be better for the both of us if i told you this tonight instead of waiting for tomorrow.
my feelings for you have changed since thanksgiving break. over thanksgiving break, i really missed you. but some time after i came back here and we were hanging out, i didn't feel the same way about you as i use to. which is why we didn't have sex before i left for christmas break. but i was hoping that the break would rekindle what i did feel for you but unfortunately, it just didn't. this isn't a result of anything you have done or said or anything like that. all i can say is that i do care for you as a person and i'm sorry this has to end like this. but i believe that you deserve someone who loves you inside and out. but i just don't feel that that person is me. i'm having trouble right now just taking care of my own feelings and emotions nevermind seeing to the happiness of another. that may sound selfish but it's something i need to work on - myself. i've been running and starving and cutting away parts of myself and my life that i don't want to see or acknowledge. for the spring semester, i may even end up going to a place to help me work on my self destructive behaviors as well as make me look in the mirror. i know you have your own problems that you need to work on and i really do hope that one day, you'll be able to work on them, when you're ready.
that being said, i'm going to have to say that we can't hang out anymore. i need space to get my thoughts together and pull off getting myself into a place in 2 weeks.
i feel sad but also feel that i made the right decision. i hope you can at least appreciate that....
me

your opinion is appreciated...thank you very much