i am officially cashing in my social skills for emotional stability, and swearing off going out and looking for new friends game. I now know i'll never find a good person to be intimate with up here, since all the women are either underaged, married(or soon to be), with child, or have already pumped out a couple of podlings. Maybe i'll start up again when...
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everyday is a heart ache, everyday is a joy
ask not the elves for advice, for they shall say both yes and no
people don't make promises to keep anymore.
blackened empty hands without the soft flesh to feel. Filled with soft warm shadows, and slow collapsing hope for a lighter tomorrow. Plastic snowflakes under dim halogen brightness cast fleeting glimpses towards a festive day....
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ask not the elves for advice, for they shall say both yes and no
people don't make promises to keep anymore.
blackened empty hands without the soft flesh to feel. Filled with soft warm shadows, and slow collapsing hope for a lighter tomorrow. Plastic snowflakes under dim halogen brightness cast fleeting glimpses towards a festive day....
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zero:
Thanks for the comment on my set! 
arachnequarius:
hello, love. that pictures is sooooooo delightful!! really cool.
so, are you out galavanting with turkey eating types this weekend? hopefully you are having more days of joy than sadness, my sweet.
and also,
so, are you out galavanting with turkey eating types this weekend? hopefully you are having more days of joy than sadness, my sweet.
and also,
Thin ice is not any fun anymore. everything has evolved into a very sketchy balancing act between utter disaster and marginal success...
At least i don't have someone else's emotional state to feel responsible for. Don't get me wrong, i really love making people happy, if i think they are worth it. most of those people are really far away right now. Not just in...
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At least i don't have someone else's emotional state to feel responsible for. Don't get me wrong, i really love making people happy, if i think they are worth it. most of those people are really far away right now. Not just in...
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trixel:
make sure the blue wire doesn't touch the pink wire...
I want to have a good talk with you my boy. You said something was brewing, and I've been lost in someone the past few days. I'm ready to listen, when you're ready to spill.
I want to have a good talk with you my boy. You said something was brewing, and I've been lost in someone the past few days. I'm ready to listen, when you're ready to spill.
Fucking A Righteous
No bubble gum to chew
From here, right now, all i can do is be the bad guy
might as well remember, even the bad guy thinks he's in the right. So even the bad guy has his own story, as does the evil temptress, who the story should be about anyway, but hollywood doesn't bill a movie that way, cus teenagers...
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No bubble gum to chew
From here, right now, all i can do is be the bad guy
might as well remember, even the bad guy thinks he's in the right. So even the bad guy has his own story, as does the evil temptress, who the story should be about anyway, but hollywood doesn't bill a movie that way, cus teenagers...
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amina:
I have bubble gum, but its all the flavors that I hate.
So we are in the same boat.
So we are in the same boat.
chloe:
Yeah, when you're a kid, emotions are so weird... I remember just about anything had the potential to be embarassing.
le sigh
yes, this means what it says.
yes, this means what it says.
michellefatale:
You're awesome. (Chloe told me to do it)
freshly showered faux hawk and pjs hot outa the dryer.
it's bliss...
it's bliss...
arachnequarius:
mmmmmmmmm, that sounds scrumptious!! you must show the faux, methinks.
and yes, city bustle is delightful. what is anchorage like? be there bustle, or is it fairly calm in nature? take in nature in any number of ways.
i like the new stats listing ~ incredibly visceral.
and yes, city bustle is delightful. what is anchorage like? be there bustle, or is it fairly calm in nature? take in nature in any number of ways.
i like the new stats listing ~ incredibly visceral.
shit fire, i forgot to do laundry.
not too responsible of me, but with all the drinking and such
at least i'm not yet the bad guy in any of these fucked up peoples lives
not yet, but i give it a week...maybe two
all i need is some warmth, but i won't take it from just anyone
this isn't a choice, just how i...
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not too responsible of me, but with all the drinking and such
at least i'm not yet the bad guy in any of these fucked up peoples lives
not yet, but i give it a week...maybe two
all i need is some warmth, but i won't take it from just anyone
this isn't a choice, just how i...
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arachnequarius:
chicago was amaaaaaaazing and much much fun. you and da boys have a night off. or, you know, just a night with me. 
sin can work to yr advantage if you play it just right. be sure to take care of yrself as well, though. i'll through some laundry on for you.
sin can work to yr advantage if you play it just right. be sure to take care of yrself as well, though. i'll through some laundry on for you.
chloe:
Yeah, I got em last night, I wrote you an email about it through your contact info.
I forgot to do laundry too! Well, not so much forgot as ignored the growling, writhing pile in the corner. Oh well, there's always today!
I forgot to do laundry too! Well, not so much forgot as ignored the growling, writhing pile in the corner. Oh well, there's always today!
The shits' just all wacked out here, weird and fucked, and so on...
i used to make random theme oriented mix cds, but i have no cd player so now i don't do that any more. it's the little things i miss.
oh, and pregnancy is like an epidemic up here. seriously. granted to the average folk, there is only two things to do up...
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i used to make random theme oriented mix cds, but i have no cd player so now i don't do that any more. it's the little things i miss.
oh, and pregnancy is like an epidemic up here. seriously. granted to the average folk, there is only two things to do up...
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chloe:
Yikes! Baby epidemic! Remind me never to go to Alaska!
chloe:
so true... I was 
but you made my day!!
but you made my day!! uhm... yeah. I somehow feel like i've done something bad. I know, from and intellectual point of view, that my actionswordsmotives are honest and without ill intent. somehow, i might be deceiving myself, might be wishing on a star, might be in fact a source of temptation.
not a game to be played. by experience i know it's not the life i want, not the...
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I love good people, and i love weird unexpected circumstances.In this, if in no way else, tonight only, i am complete. I wish i could make my life to be something that leaves me feeling like i do now, but, alas, tis not to be. If not now, maybe later, or maybe never.
Some people have completeness to their lives, as an everyday thing. I...
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The one that got away:
Margaret Fielding, 1998, 22 years old, from Peebles in the Scottish Borders, short hair, alabaster skin, pierced nipple, still in love with her ex-boyfriend (a photographer, naturally), she used to drink all day until she couldn't remember what she'd done, and she taught me to do the same, she had a way of roaching her roll-ups from the metro tickets in the back pocket of her jeans that would just slay me, I told her I was falling in love with her, she laughed, we were 'sexually incompatible' (her gentle euphemism), I pursued her rather shamelessly when it was clear she was no longer interested, she took to wearing plunging necklines that almost made me weep, eventually I couldn't bear to be in the same room with her anymore...
...last I heard she had got back together with her boyfriend and was living on the isle of Skye.
Your question: what's the closest you have ever come to suicide?
unfortunately, right now that usually translates into an attraction to arrogance. this is what must change for my little life.
hypothetically, i think it is all about better. what do you think?