sicpowered

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i know that part of my problem is i'm not treating myself very well. not eating right, or even enough. sleeping the crazy hours, crazy during the waking. longing and lust for the outside world has driven me to little apexes of irresponsibility at exactly the wrong times. I only attack when i'm most vulnerable, and i maintain that fragile nature so i may attack often. i'm just not really sure why, and how i can go about affecting change. i'm putting my head down and pushing through as hard and as consistently as i can, and i'm in some seriously bad shapes.