sicpowered

in the long run, maybe it'll all work out.

or not.

Nothing too exciting these days. The vehicle is officially crapped out. Kaput, dead battery i think. plus i just need to set it on fire and laugh, watching it burn all halloween orange and chimney red, to quote Tom.

Fuck, i feel like shit. suck shit, i feel bad. i've had a good couple of days outside, and that's good. today went climbing, even though i suck at it from lack of practice, and too much desk time, it was fun nonetheless. yesterday was hiking, some silly action adventure shots of me jumping streams and in general being super pale boy. I'm supposed to hang with a girl i'm not really that interested in, even though we've had some kissin all up ons at a party. not sure what to think about that. Plus i need to do laundry and get some good fucking sleep. barring that, some good slee will do. my lover from several weeks back has returned to the north, but i have my doubts as to her availability. she's a helluva person, but a real pain in the ass. My favorite type, apparently.

And even though things are going well, i'm seriously considering fucking it all off and moving back to Ca. underfunded and with no real goal other than having fun and wasting the last of my twenties on beer and cheap/easy women. basically, doing there what i'm doing here. shit, i love that moment of clarity when everything seems so shallow and under-value to it's potential. shit.

yeah, so wtf ever. I'm just feelin it, the frontal lobe burn of sleep dep. and anxiety, heavily tainted with a raw kind of desire for thighs wrapped around me, ass planted hard against my hips, and lips in all the right places.

i'll stop now, before i hurt myself.