so they bestowed upon me tonight a little birthday party....twas nice, bordering on ridiculous. for exam:
my best friends mom actually asked me
" are you looking for a girlfriend?"
after a brief but vigorous laugh i responded
" no offense but that was the most inane question i've heard"
she agree'd
but now i think, am i? Really looking for a committed partnership, reaching far into the vague future of culminating romantic illusions. Do i really want to invest even more of myself into the care of another? trust someone else. maybe all i want is to satisfy my basal impulses in the lust of a good woman, maybe to devour the warmth of someone else instead of freezing myself away. hmmm interesting i guess i don't have an answer, but "lucky" for me i am not tested on this topic. Though i'm out n about when the flavor takes me, i meet new and attractive, and interesting drunkards, i've not yet vaulted into the realm of asking for #'s and climbing into foreign beds.some little voice in my head says the great north is not where i'll find love aeternal, but that could just be my crack genie talkin yo....
somebody mail me a kiss, so i won't feel so numb to the joys of it.
my best friends mom actually asked me
" are you looking for a girlfriend?"
after a brief but vigorous laugh i responded
" no offense but that was the most inane question i've heard"
she agree'd
but now i think, am i? Really looking for a committed partnership, reaching far into the vague future of culminating romantic illusions. Do i really want to invest even more of myself into the care of another? trust someone else. maybe all i want is to satisfy my basal impulses in the lust of a good woman, maybe to devour the warmth of someone else instead of freezing myself away. hmmm interesting i guess i don't have an answer, but "lucky" for me i am not tested on this topic. Though i'm out n about when the flavor takes me, i meet new and attractive, and interesting drunkards, i've not yet vaulted into the realm of asking for #'s and climbing into foreign beds.some little voice in my head says the great north is not where i'll find love aeternal, but that could just be my crack genie talkin yo....
somebody mail me a kiss, so i won't feel so numb to the joys of it.
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Your exchange with your friend's mom sounds like the kind of conversation I might have. But, don'tcha know, it's often the most inane questions that take the most thinking about...
When I was in Sydney and told my friend Murray that what I was really looking for was a partner, he told me that he'd thought like that for a long time, but eventually come to the conclusion that, if he's been on his own for so long, it must be because, at some level, he doesn't want a partner and is quite happy on his own...
I dunno, though... I look around here, in the libraries, in the cinemas, on the street, and I see all these beautiful people who are all getting laid (oh you can tell) and participating in the great and wonderful dance of seduction and reproduction, and I feel as if, somehow, the whole giddy carousel has left me behind... and then I see these sad old men in the cinematheque who must have given up looking for any kind of intimate intercourse years ago and have simply resigned themselves to a vicarious life of movies and books and so on, and I think, is that me, is that my future? Is it, oh horror of horrors, my present?
*shudder*
So, er, anyway, I'm looking forward to that 'outsourced' blowjob!
3 consecutive sunrises sounds ambitious and reminds me of a line by Lou Reed:
'How do you think it feels
When you've been up for five days
To come down in one?'
I think he was using a lot of speed, though.