at what point in my walk home do i silently slide into melancholy. is it that i am more honest then, or more self indulgent? could be i'm just tired, that too familiar sense that my nights re not spent well, that my days ought not be under the guise of sleepytime.
what the hell?
last night i drank before work. when i got there,...
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what the hell?
last night i drank before work. when i got there,...
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Die die die die die die DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
ok, i feel better now. heh. heh. muahahahhahha
ok, i feel less psychotic, for now.
ok where was i ....
so we all know i'm not long for this world. No, to the best of my knowledge, i'm not going to the end of the path, kicking the proverbial bucket or counting the...
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ok, i feel better now. heh. heh. muahahahhahha
ok, i feel less psychotic, for now.
ok where was i ....
so we all know i'm not long for this world. No, to the best of my knowledge, i'm not going to the end of the path, kicking the proverbial bucket or counting the...
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kay:
*hug*
~cheers
~cheers
jayenh:
Hmm. Anchorage.
You can be treated for "death-like symptoms," though. Just ask Yassir Arafat.
You can be treated for "death-like symptoms," though. Just ask Yassir Arafat.
i should put a sign on my door that says:
if you are not already on exemplary terms with the occupant of this residence, do not knock. Death like symptoms may ensue. have a nice day. don't die.
if you are not already on exemplary terms with the occupant of this residence, do not knock. Death like symptoms may ensue. have a nice day. don't die.
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prockg:
Youch baby. I hope you feel better soon. Or that you get some good writing done while you're in the doldrums. 
And guess who's dumb? Me. I forgot I said you guys were dumb for giving me your addresses. Like 5 minutes after I wrote it. Hahaha!
And guess who's dumb? Me. I forgot I said you guys were dumb for giving me your addresses. Like 5 minutes after I wrote it. Hahaha!
kay:
*smooch*
I bet a tapeworm plushie would cheer you up!
http://www.mcphee.com/parasite/current/11356.html
~cheers
[Edited on Jun 16, 2005 3:03PM]
I bet a tapeworm plushie would cheer you up!
http://www.mcphee.com/parasite/current/11356.html
~cheers
[Edited on Jun 16, 2005 3:03PM]
i slept fairly well, saw a movie, enjoyed a touch of sun. perhaps the bleh has been defeated for now.
and i still have 6 hours of sunlight to go....
24 hours till i have to work again.....
6 days till i fly back to CA....
yeah, i'm ok with it.
and i still have 6 hours of sunlight to go....
24 hours till i have to work again.....
6 days till i fly back to CA....
yeah, i'm ok with it.
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noir:
They're all that way, but thanks.
I'm going to go shave my head.
Goodnight!
I'm going to go shave my head.
Goodnight!
kay:
Wonder if segments are like finger prints?
I am my own worm snowflake?
~cheers
I am my own worm snowflake?
~cheers
the grand bleh continues...
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noir:
LIBRA (Sept. 23-Oct. 22): As a boy, the renowned Spanish matador Manolete was a sissy. He rarely played outdoors, preferring to be near his mother as he read books and painted pictures. Psychologist James Hillman explains this by suggesting that the youthful Manolete had already sensed his destiny, intuiting that one day he would be alone in the ring facing down angry half-ton bulls. His childhood behavior was a way of marshalling his strength and shielding him from the enormity of the challenges he would seek out one day. Think about how this theme might apply to your own life, Libra. Is it possible that what you have considered one of your weaknesses has actually been preparing you to express tremendous strength?
prockg:
I'm not sure why I forgot to bring shoes that wouldn't float away when I went this time, but rest assured I scouted the area for ouchie urchins first. 
i kinda don't feel too good
this may come as a shock to some, but i'm not really surprised.
this may come as a shock to some, but i'm not really surprised.
the single most disconcerting thing right now:
the sense that i am not too subtly repeating myself everywhere i go. in every phone message, most conversations, in my daily habits. i am becoming a rote human.
plus the mosquitos are quite annoying. killed one today mid meal. it was, as they say, a bloody mess. but there is always more, always more waiting, waiting in...
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the sense that i am not too subtly repeating myself everywhere i go. in every phone message, most conversations, in my daily habits. i am becoming a rote human.
plus the mosquitos are quite annoying. killed one today mid meal. it was, as they say, a bloody mess. but there is always more, always more waiting, waiting in...
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spanoonoos:
believe it or not, i guessed those 2 things about u already. don't ask me how i picked up on that over email; it must be my degenerate radar... ive been doing my best to keep up my participation in team degenerate & have made great strides this weekend. yummy!!!!
don't ask me how i picked up on that over email; it must be my degenerate radar... ive been doing my best to keep up my participation in team degenerate & have made great strides this weekend. yummy!!!!
kay:
Indeed. I think it could lend itself to good times, but I want him to understand this lesson that I can teach him, I'm discriminating on who I sleep with. I may appear a party girl, but I do have my own personal boundries I will not often cross. The other thing is for him to understand non-monogamy does not mean "swinger". He thinks this is all very complicated, and for someone who thinks monogamy is the only way there is, it might be. I agree it is complicated to a point, but I have to be heard out. He is not even doing that right now. So...I think I will get him a little tipsy and try again.
~cheers
~cheers
so i don't know the reasons, the why's or where fors. i can only half imagine the hows and never was too good with the whens. its all just slipping into the blur of "Life". what may have gone wrong, right now i don't even know.
every day i'm writing these journals, setting forth a record, an opinion, a log. and i set other thoughts...
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every day i'm writing these journals, setting forth a record, an opinion, a log. and i set other thoughts...
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noir:
Well, that pretty much sums it up for me, too.
i've managed to swing the excessive-o-meter in the other direction, and get entirely too much sleep, but i did get some cuddles. on the other side of the coin, i feel craptastic. craptacular. craperrific. crap with an extra shot a of crap, skinny no foam.
i'm going to go take a nap before work.
i'm going to go take a nap before work.
kay:
Sleep well love.
~cheers
~cheers
noir:
HA! I'm going to order that next time I go to Starbucks.
Finally, after about 15 years of sleeping wrong, I am waking up on my own nearly rested after 8 hours of sleep.
Finally, after about 15 years of sleeping wrong, I am waking up on my own nearly rested after 8 hours of sleep.
what does it all mean?
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xposingxpinupx:
It happens too freaking much.
I dont know if its because I work in retail and they think its ok or what but at first i tried to still be friendly and brush it off but its getting old.
I dont know if its because I work in retail and they think its ok or what but at first i tried to still be friendly and brush it off but its getting old.
xposingxpinupx:
besides working at suncoast i also work at hot topic. 
i am a steamroller. love me.
spanoonoos:
i'm a steamroller baby
gonna roll all over you
gonna roll all over you
noir:
I don't think I will ever really get a boat. I don't think I'll ever be enough ahead in life to do something like that. I'm always playing fucking catch up.
I wish I could remember this stuff. I feel weird that there is anything I don't remember. I mean, I was fucking there.
I wish I could remember this stuff. I feel weird that there is anything I don't remember. I mean, I was fucking there.
careful to let the beauty of the sea crash into your whispering dreams. some truths are too terrible in their radiance, too careful in their sleeping power. the cradle of the earth and the undeniably of the oceans are but dreams and we are wisps of wind between the rhythms and beats of the waves upon sand.
kay:
*smooch*
~cheers
~cheers
~cheers