and now another little piece of my heart has driven off.
From my place she has gone.
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am i a fool as well?
From my place she has gone.
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am i a fool as well?
goddamn... i want some pizza. wtf.
and what's in a voice really. it's just sound, you can't hear it for more than a flitting moment. only quickly remember how it sounded, only to forget in favor of the next phrase. I can never authentically hear myself, and i know i hear myself better than most. it's just all empty air, moving about on strange and subtle wavelengths. it's not even particularly...
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noir:
I've been doing that with eating lately, too. In fact, I'm going to go cook something when I'm done typing this so that I don't do it again.
Voices of loved ones are like music, but more personal.
Voices of loved ones are like music, but more personal.
now i feel much better.
noir:
Much better than what? Yesterday when you were just feeling better?
AHahahahahahhahhaa
*whew* I feel better.
*whew* I feel better.
prockg:
Really? What's the secret?
prockg:
I sketch in like 2 minutes. You know you wanna.
my part time lover leaves state in several days. free sex is no longer in my future... i imagine i'll have to invest some emotional content into it from now on. as opposed to restraining that impulse as much as possible. in the long run, i know i have managed to find another excellent friend.
how many have fallen like leaves at the end of...
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noir:
And I actually wasn't down when I took that picture yesterday. It just looks like it (to me), so I used it to illustrate today's point.
prockg:
You're number is one of three I have made sure not too lose. Feel special. Or scared. Or something. Yeah, I'll try not to drunk-dial you.
yeah... i'm still lagging. soul lag, the elastic in the little silver thread has pooped out, and i think i'm reelin in my soul from somwhere in British Columbia. maybe by tomorrow the damned thing will pick up the pace and grab a piece of the Yukon. if it were smart i'd just cut cross country, but ooooh, nooooo it's gotta take the same damn...
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prockg:
I just miss hollascottmoney. I knew when he moved he wouldn't have a computer but we still talked on the phone. While I was in HI we played phone tag and then I was busy for a few days and when I went to call back, his phone # had the "the number or code you have dialed is incorrect" message on it. 
I wrote him a postcard and a letter from over there, but it's been a week and I haven't heard from him.
It's not my fault. I just wasn't prepared for the sweet talk that a Texas boy can bring to the table. It's some next level shit compared to the California kids I grew up with, lemme tell you.
Honestly though, we really are just friends. And I miss talking to my friend.
I wrote him a postcard and a letter from over there, but it's been a week and I haven't heard from him.
It's not my fault. I just wasn't prepared for the sweet talk that a Texas boy can bring to the table. It's some next level shit compared to the California kids I grew up with, lemme tell you.
Honestly though, we really are just friends. And I miss talking to my friend.
heterochromia:
Can I get you a drink to go with that particle board and paint chips?
still recovering. have no fear, soon i shall unleash my grand manifesto... er... accounting of my trip. it may be an overwrought twirling and spiraling bullshit story, but ideally it will be funny. much like me.
but for now, my ass has been kicked into revelation and sent home packing. i'm feeling better than i have in years (mentally), but at the same time i'm...
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kay:
*hug* Take care sweetie.
~cheers
~cheers
noir:
I'm just the opposite. Want to trade?
there's a long and a short of it...
the short = ouch.
if i can i'll detail the long of it. all bullshit aside, i'm "home" now.
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oh, and one more thing, completely unrelated. I swear
it puts the lotion on it's skin....
the short = ouch.
if i can i'll detail the long of it. all bullshit aside, i'm "home" now.
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oh, and one more thing, completely unrelated. I swear
it puts the lotion on it's skin....
kay:
*grin* Take care love!
~cheers
~cheers
Ca has been nice to me so far. So there 
kay:
It better be. I would hate to have to come out there and kick it in the ding ding.
~cheers
~cheers
prockg:
Where is that in your last journal? I want to meet you there.
Glad you're having fun.
Glad you're having fun.
damp purple roses. such a nice thing. crisp air, freshly wet asphalt. pale blue dawn, so pale this far north. the grey still crowds the edges, but the gold shines around the edges. mostly it's just that the roses smelled so beautiful.
T-minus 2 days: CA
how ever will i stay up here any longer than is absolutely necessary. easy answer there. when the wind...
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T-minus 2 days: CA
how ever will i stay up here any longer than is absolutely necessary. easy answer there. when the wind...
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trixel:
I got your message.
I would have a problem leaving the north: the beauty, the relative solitude. I understand the social interaction is less than stellar though.
ps. I hope you find a place which makes you feel rested.
I would have a problem leaving the north: the beauty, the relative solitude. I understand the social interaction is less than stellar though.
ps. I hope you find a place which makes you feel rested.
kay:
I'm not in a good place right now. It will clear up with time though.
~cheers
~cheers