well shit folks.......

I guess it was bound to happen. The whole being freidns thing is all good...but I still love this gal and she is in my head 24/7. I hope it gets easier.

So when we spoke on the phone yesterday and it got ugly...it ended bad. So I tried to call everyone I could think of who was around ( I shoulda called you rox!!!). Guess who eneded up talking to me for over an hour and really calming me down.....Shannon!!! yup..a blast from the past...but what a good girl..oh my god! After like 3 hours...kim called me again apologizing and all and tried to make me understand....I do now. She doesnt want to hang out with me with her new friends..b/c she doesnt want them to get the impression that we are going out...so she tells me im not invited. Wouldnt you think that something is going on if you were in my shoes? umm..yeah. fuck it...her loss.