sicmonte

my emotions get the best of me waaaay too often. and i always regret it. like when i cut myself....i havent done it for a while, but the last time was a doosy. i probably shouldve got stitches, but i couldnt afford to go to the hospital. the scar i have now is soooo fucking sick. and i hate that i did that to myself. its so ugly that in the morning, i have to force myself not to put make up on it (because garrett and i are the only people who can see it and that would be silly) thats just one small example.

im glad you set your boundaries with shannon. its amazing how we may never stop loving the people that put us through the the hardest times and the most heart ache.

i know about the porn thing. i watch a lot of porn myself.....and weird porn. its just that i wouldnt watch it while my boyfriend was sleeping in the bed in the same room. i wouldnt watch it while he was there unless we were watching it together. and the fact that he pretended that he was checking his e mail made me feel like he was hiding it from me. plus, thats just a shitty way to wake up from a deep sleep. i was depressed that night before i went to bed anyway. but thank you.

they found my car, and it was towed to the repair shop yesterday. looks like i'll be getting it back sometime this month.

im glad you're doing okay. so whats with this pushing friends away? what happened?

its always great to hear from you. i havent been on here very often lately.

okay. i hope you are having wonderful happines
talk to you soon

xo
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p.s.
this is a really fucking long comment!