Whered you go?...I miss you so...Seems like forever that you've been gone...please come back home...
Im breaking down from the inside out. I have tried to fight it...but now it is beating me. I have never had this much emotion from anything in my lfe...and now when im 26...it all comes to a head. I dont know what she did...but Shannon really got to me. For the first time in my life...I felt happy and loved and accepted. I mean...she called me gorgeous...what chic calls her b/f gorgeous?? That is a first for me. We were so into each other it was sick...and then it ends with no good bye...no explanation...all that's left behind is her stuff and some clues to her recent drug use.
I dont know how to deal with this. I want to scream for help...but no one around me understands...or even cares for that matter. So I turn to you all....who understand and know what im going through...and you have helped and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart...especially my girl rude_ruca and roxiekill. You all have no idea what you have done for me..i owe you everything!!!
Im tired of crying in random places b/c of a song or a emory....im supposed to be a tough guy..lol...not a sobbing baby. Oh well...I have to let it out.
Shannon...you are my everything.
Im breaking down from the inside out. I have tried to fight it...but now it is beating me. I have never had this much emotion from anything in my lfe...and now when im 26...it all comes to a head. I dont know what she did...but Shannon really got to me. For the first time in my life...I felt happy and loved and accepted. I mean...she called me gorgeous...what chic calls her b/f gorgeous?? That is a first for me. We were so into each other it was sick...and then it ends with no good bye...no explanation...all that's left behind is her stuff and some clues to her recent drug use.
I dont know how to deal with this. I want to scream for help...but no one around me understands...or even cares for that matter. So I turn to you all....who understand and know what im going through...and you have helped and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart...especially my girl rude_ruca and roxiekill. You all have no idea what you have done for me..i owe you everything!!!
Im tired of crying in random places b/c of a song or a emory....im supposed to be a tough guy..lol...not a sobbing baby. Oh well...I have to let it out.
Shannon...you are my everything.
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i tell my boyfriend how gorgeous i think he is all the time
crying does help sometimes....but after a while, its just a waste of energy.
i wish i could give you answers
i wish i could make every one ever hurt by addiction in any way feel better.
but i cant and that makes me sad
you will get through this though, and in the end, whatever happens, it will make you a better, stronger person.
k, bye
drugs give you some of the best times of your life but when they decide they want to take it all back, they take it with interest and it often hurts everyone around you. i'm sory but she's gone and she'll never be the same person again.
sorry again...