sicmonte

same here. good to hear from you sweet heart. thanks for the messages. you rock. i finally posted too!!! yay! hope all is well. have fun working on your car. mine is all fucked up. could a damaged catalytic converter cause a car to just die and start right back up again??
talk to you later.
xo

Hey, I am just as guilty, love. What are you doing on friday the 6th, err, well tommarrow night? My freinds are having a b-day bash for me at my fave bar in D.C. You should really think about coming, still have my number? Be in touch! Miss you!

i'm sooooo sorry.. i do know what its like when absolutely nothing goes right. and i also know that it does get better! drugs suck...and so do pretty boys! kick his ass!!

xo

howdy-doo!

Happy Birthday!

hey!! happy fucking birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry i missed it i suck. anywho, did you get your cymbol? i hope so. its a little rainy here today, but nothing near 50 degrees.... have fun in your shop.
xo

hey..it was good seeing you again..

it was great meeting you... i take it we'll be seeing you at more events in the future now? hahaha

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for the German candy. Great to meet you.

hey
if you want to see that phone video i shot of you and your boy on the sofa last night, shoot me your email and i'll send it right over.

my emotions get the best of me waaaay too often. and i always regret it. like when i cut myself....i havent done it for a while, but the last time was a doosy. i probably shouldve got stitches, but i couldnt afford to go to the hospital. the scar i have now is soooo fucking sick. and i hate that i did that to myself. its so ugly that in the morning, i have to force myself not to put make up on it (because garrett and i are the only people who can see it and that would be silly) thats just one small example.

im glad you set your boundaries with shannon. its amazing how we may never stop loving the people that put us through the the hardest times and the most heart ache.

i know about the porn thing. i watch a lot of porn myself.....and weird porn. its just that i wouldnt watch it while my boyfriend was sleeping in the bed in the same room. i wouldnt watch it while he was there unless we were watching it together. and the fact that he pretended that he was checking his e mail made me feel like he was hiding it from me. plus, thats just a shitty way to wake up from a deep sleep. i was depressed that night before i went to bed anyway. but thank you.

they found my car, and it was towed to the repair shop yesterday. looks like i'll be getting it back sometime this month.

im glad you're doing okay. so whats with this pushing friends away? what happened?

its always great to hear from you. i havent been on here very often lately.

okay. i hope you are having wonderful happines
talk to you soon

xo
r

p.s.
this is a really fucking long comment!

xo

im proud of you too!

im proud of me too...

i could probably complain if i really really wanted to...but i think that would make things a little worse.

im glad everything is good.

k, bye

i think meeting shannon was good. and i am proud of you. i think you pretty much know whats been going on with me this year.

xo

i dont like xmas either.

you'll get through it my friend. i know its hard

1. i have different groups. it can be very tricky to reserve time for everyone without anyone feeling neglected. not to mention making sure you have enough time for yourself. If you figure out some kind of formula, be sure to clue me in.

2.if it's meant to be, it will be, and maybe it's not meant to be until she's got herself a little more together...Maybe give her some time to prove to herself that she can be completely responsible and in control of her life, which can be more empowering and beneficial to her than anything you're providing to her now. it'll probably also make you feel a lot better, because if it all goes well, you won't have so many doubts about whether she's worthy of your trust again or not. It's quite a vulnerable situation you've got there...I know i've witnessed some crazy soap-opera-ish relationship disasters since moving to B-more, watching what happened when some friends got involved with addicts/exaddicts. But there have been success stories, also, so, you'll never know till it happens, rendering all of this opinion pretty much useless in the end....damn..

3. xmas is stupid, except for economic success or whatever. and christmas music in public should be limited to 2 days prior the actual date cause that shits annoying.

i dont like telling people what to do....but, you need to be careful! you know what i mean. we've talked about this before. "proceed with caution" . i know you love her. and i know what it feels like to be in that situation. it sucks and its hard. hang in there, man. i hope everything works out for you.

my vagina is better now. i dont have cancer! yay for me! and garretts back from oakland so everythings back to normal. thanks for asking