Please disregard yesterday's scream for help. Life is a mess. I'm confused. I don't know how to do these people things.
An Open Letter
Dear you,
It's been a bad week. What's wrong? I'm sure I've alluded to it here before, but I've probably never said it directly. To put it simply, my brain chemistry is fucked up. Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. Panic attacks. Recurrent major clinical depression. Dysthemia.
I'm drugged to the gills with Effexor, and exercise really helps, but I still struggle. Some days are better...
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Dear you,
It's been a bad week. What's wrong? I'm sure I've alluded to it here before, but I've probably never said it directly. To put it simply, my brain chemistry is fucked up. Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. Panic attacks. Recurrent major clinical depression. Dysthemia.
I'm drugged to the gills with Effexor, and exercise really helps, but I still struggle. Some days are better...
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You all ready for some hard rockin'? Big hair? Songs about groupies? Maybe some power ballads? It's the 80s!
And awaaay we go!
Because I'm feeling a bit of misogyny today:
For the sadness:
Need I say it? Slash is one bad mother fucker.
And awaaay we go!
Because I'm feeling a bit of misogyny today:
For the sadness:
Need I say it? Slash is one bad mother fucker.
Man, what a bad day. I'm pissed off. And I can feel one of my turns coming on. 
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claudette:
I wish. I was actually sitting in the dark cursing alot for about four hours before just going to bed. Fucking storm.
claudette:
It's funny, I think I'd take water over power - but I'd never thought of that 'til now. I've had my water out for weeks at a time because my plumbings older than time and I need pipes replaced constantly, but I've learned to live with it. Electricity though, it really puts a damper on everything. I kept flipping light switches and saying, "oh." Thinking about watching tv and thinking, "oh." Browsing the internet? Doing laundry? Cooking? Nope. I ended up lighting every candle in the house and filing away at a piece of jewelry I've been working on. Productive, but it would have been a hell of a lot better with Antiques Roadshow that's for sure.
I just visited my grandma at her new digs, the North Memorial residential hospice. It's really a nice place, despite its depressing nature. Her room looks out on the lake, so there are ducks and geese. She said that deer walk past her window. She also has a bird feeder just outside. Her room is nice; she can put her own pictures up and...
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snazzy:
Yup, that's what my main point was in the SG Lounge. That I am not comfortable with censorship, but that if this were MY site I wouldn't want that kind of content being displayed.
snazzy:
I'm sure the curiosity is getting the better of you with all the hub-bub going on around here, but believe me, you'll live without ever seeing it, I promise!
Tuesday morning, please be gone I'm tired of you.
Ah, the life of a recluse. Bored with people, bored with pretty much everything, really.
But there's always my music. Zeppelin will be releasing their entire catalog in digital format next month. That's pretty exciting; now if we could just get the Beatles! Of course, I already have pretty much every album the Beatles recorded, so...
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Ah, the life of a recluse. Bored with people, bored with pretty much everything, really.
But there's always my music. Zeppelin will be releasing their entire catalog in digital format next month. That's pretty exciting; now if we could just get the Beatles! Of course, I already have pretty much every album the Beatles recorded, so...
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claudette:
It's almost midnight silly, what crazy ass space-time continuum are you living in? Sheesh!
claudette:
Weird, my septum is deviated causing the right nostril to be closed as well - twinsies! (Yeah, I said it.) Sucks does't it? When I blow my nose it sounds like an angry elephant, which gets me lots of dates of course. Does it make your glasses sit crooked on your nose? Am I the only one?!?!
I've decided my one strength in conversation is the ability to keep people talking about themselves. I'm talking about the "hey, how's your life been" conversations, not those about history or science or religion or politics. I'm good at those kinds of conversations. But the other kind, the small-talk kind...what can I say about myself? I go to work. I come home. I'm a recluse....
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claudette:
I've been reading Chaucer for two weeks straight Sir. It really is affecting me, not to mention I was quite taken aback at the audacity of said redneck yelling at me about killing baby animals - kind of set the mood for the entirety of the trip. Fucking hill people really piss me off.
claudette:
Shit, we were readin Lanval by Marie de France and some woman got all huffy in the discussion boards (it's an online course) and wrote something to the effect of, "Isn't this a bit xxx rated for this course? I'm not sure this is appropriate reading..." I replied something to the effect of, "Aren't you a little bit sheltered for this course? If you can't handle history, maybe you should check out the bible college down the street lady." Rediclous. Yet another reason why I take online courses - I'd have to choke a bitch otherwise.
Hey, it looks like my sister got a job. At Best Buy. Yay employee discount! Really, this is probably one of the best things to happen to me in quite a while.
My cable went on the fritz earlier this week without me knowing; the TiVo has dual tuners, so most of the channels don't come through the decoder box itself. However, when I do...
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My cable went on the fritz earlier this week without me knowing; the TiVo has dual tuners, so most of the channels don't come through the decoder box itself. However, when I do...
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claudette:
I suppose you're right.
So... Can I be in love with Dairy Queen's Cotton Candy Blizzard?!?! Becuase I totally am.
So... Can I be in love with Dairy Queen's Cotton Candy Blizzard?!?! Becuase I totally am.
snazzy:
Naw, young buck has a girlfriend, dangit! I shall glue your heart back together promptly! 
And dammit, I'M TOTALLY JEALOUS YOU BROUGHT HER FLOWERS!!! Do you have ANY idea how thrilled I would be if a man brought me flowers?! Thank you Jeebus, may chivalry not be dead afterall!!!
And dammit, I'M TOTALLY JEALOUS YOU BROUGHT HER FLOWERS!!! Do you have ANY idea how thrilled I would be if a man brought me flowers?! Thank you Jeebus, may chivalry not be dead afterall!!!
I have been too lenient with the mice at my house.
Yes, I have mice. They live in my garage and in the breezeway that connects the garage to the house. Generally, I let them be. I don't have any crops for them to spoil, and they don't come into the house. I have four cats, and the life expectancy of a mouse that sneaks...
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Yes, I have mice. They live in my garage and in the breezeway that connects the garage to the house. Generally, I let them be. I don't have any crops for them to spoil, and they don't come into the house. I have four cats, and the life expectancy of a mouse that sneaks...
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snazzy:
And this my dear is why I shall soon be officially named a "Hermette"! Teehee, I like the sounds of that... 
claudette:
Sci Fi channel indeed!
Benedryl is evil, but when you're just too sick to function at least it will knock ya out I guess.
I was having a real hard time sitting through this Flora of China lecture last night. The auditorium has a bit of mold, comine that with my current allergy situation and I wasn't breathing very well. And of course I forgot my inhaler. It sucked.
Benedryl is evil, but when you're just too sick to function at least it will knock ya out I guess.
I was having a real hard time sitting through this Flora of China lecture last night. The auditorium has a bit of mold, comine that with my current allergy situation and I wasn't breathing very well. And of course I forgot my inhaler. It sucked.
Why is there no one around to talk to at 7:00 am?
Before this week, the weather had been extremely dry around here. No rain for ages. As a result, the geese had retreated to their secret lairs, and I hadn't seen them out marauding for quite some time. Now that it's rained, I see them out again. They're in peoples' yards, eating grass seed....
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Before this week, the weather had been extremely dry around here. No rain for ages. As a result, the geese had retreated to their secret lairs, and I hadn't seen them out marauding for quite some time. Now that it's rained, I see them out again. They're in peoples' yards, eating grass seed....
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snazzy:
For the record, instead of working out tonight like I'd planned, I've been sitting here on my ass on SG stuffing my face with chips-n-salsa and rice krispy treats... 