sick

Disclaimer: The following, though inspired by real people and events, is a work of fiction.

You fade into the background.
Nameless, faceless, you melt
Back into the anonymous blob
Of contemptible humanity.
The time we spent together
Is a dream recalled through
Valium amnesia.
Where has the connection gone?
Was it real?
I can't remember through the deafening silence.
Speak, and I will remember.

I did absolutely nothing I said I was going to do today. I didn't clean, I didn't buy sheets or window coverings. Instead, I sat around and watched TV. There were Firefly and CSI marathons on.

God, I should get out of my pajamas. I've been in them since Friday. It's disgusting.

Talk, talk, talk, talk. Sometimes I hate words; I'm a writer, and I...
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Thank you, presidents, for giving me the day off tomorrow.

Although I plan to spend the day cleaning, and maybe shopping for some new window blinds and bedsheets, it's better than going to work.

I should go to IKEA next weekend, but the place kind of scares me. I can never find what I want. Oh, I know how everything has part numbers, and you...
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Fucking obsessive self-doubt.

Do I like her too much? Does she feel the same way? Am I putting forth too much effort? Is it unappreciated? Unwanted, even? Am I investing too much of myself? Am I opening myself up to heartache? Am I just a way to pass the time? Does she think of me when I'm not around? Want me? Need me? Does she...
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After Friday night's SGTC get together, we figure our secret is out. The wonderful girl I've been writing about, who I'm completely, hopelessly smitten with is none other than our very own Ms_Magdalena. She is, simply, the most incredible woman ever.

I'll now have to start dodging death threats from all her internet admirers.

Ok, ok, I'll stop writing about her for now, because...
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Friday I went on a date with an attractive, intelligent young woman. It was a good time, and there's potential for me to like her. I think I'll be able to persuade her to go out with me again.

I've started playing WoW. I like it. I have a background in text-based online RPGs going back 15 years, and I have to say that WoW...
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It's Saturday night, and I'm once again at home. I should get some sort of life. Or even better, you all should give up your social lives and sit at home Saturday nights so I have people to talk to.

I was supposed to have one of those things where a man and woman go out on a social activity. A date, I think. At...
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I have the day off today, since I work for a financial institution. I love banker's holidays.

Except I have the feeling I'm going to be exceptionally bored. I haven't left the house since I got home at noon on Friday. Well, I did leave for five minutes yesterday to get cigarettes, but that doesn't count.

That's no big deal, really, as long as there's...
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It's not supposed to get about zero (Fahrenheit. That's about -18 for you metric folks.) here all weekend. They're talking windchills of -45 degrees.

I don't plan on leaving the house. I will have to go out once to buy cigarettes, but other than that I intend to huddle indoors.

I just wish I had someone to cuddle to stay warm!