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Somewhere just outside of Minneapolis

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Sunday Mar 08, 2009

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I don't often go to places where I see normal people getting on with their normal lives. I just got back from the grocery store; I go to the grocery store every Sunday, but never so early. It's usually late, when all the strange people come out.

So today's trip was a surprise. When the fuck did everyone get so young? I saw all these couples, obviously married, and they were just fucking kids.

How did time go by so quickly? How did life pass me by?

It put me in mind of "High Windows" by Philip Larkin.

When I see a couple of kids
And guess he's fucking her and she's
Taking pills or wearing a diaphragm,
I know this is paradise

Everyone old has dreamed of all their lives--
Bonds and gestures pushed to one side
Like an outdated combine harvester,
And everyone young going down the long slide

To happiness, endlessly. I wonder if
Anyone looked at me, forty years back,
And thought, That'll be the life;
No God any more, or sweating in the dark

About hell and that, or having to hide
What you think of the priest. He
And his lot will all go down the long slide
Like free bloody birds. And immediately

Rather than words comes the thought of high windows:
The sun-comprehending glass,
And beyond it, the deep blue air, that shows
Nothing, and is nowhere, and is endless.
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silently_sarah:
I live in an area where a lot of kids get married young, like right after high school or shortly there after. It's kinda... sad really.

One girl from my class has already been married, had a kid and then divorced.

I'll be close to 25 when I finally get hitched.


Also - yea totally on the driving stick. I've been wanting to learn, but the over all situation around it isn't as desirable as I'd hoped for. I guess no better time then when you have no car available other then a stick-shift.
Mar 29, 2009
silently_sarah:
Yeah... its not so much the dieing at a light for me, as the whole car shuddering for a bit after the light while the car tries to decide if I've put it in gear or not properly.

I can always overcome it, but knowing there are people around looking at me while I do it is just a wee bit embarrassing.
Mar 29, 2009

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