sick

I'm having a crisis. I saw some photographs of myself. I haven't seen any for a while. I look awful. I mean, I knew on an intellectual level that I've put on a bit too much weight. But it's different to actually see it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not grotesque or anything, and you all will say, "Oh, don't worry about it, you're not fat, blah, blah, blah..." However, for someone who was always 30 lbs. underweight, being 30 lbs. over is a drastic change, and a bit distressing. It's completely out of sync with my self-image.

Getting old blows. Anti-depressants blow.

I must get more exercise. This must stop!

Note: Please forgive me, but this is the first time in my life I haven't been satisfied with my appearance. It's rough.