sick

For the love of God, schools...just reject me already. Better yet, accept me. Either way, get it done with! I'm sure the waiting will kill me.

Of course being accepted will cause further confusion. What if it's Penn State? Can I go there, knowing that she's there? Fearing that things may not work out, that she may choose to never see me, and all the rest?

But would I really have the choice not to go? Ah, life...why must you always be so complicated?