Apart from the items on my Amazon wishlist, I would like the jolly fat man to bring me an AlienBees flash setup and a 17" MacBook Pro with the high-resolution display. These things will help me advance my dream of someday abandoning my lucrative job as a writer in corporate America to be a photographer.
I really should start putting together a portfolio. Maybe...
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I really should start putting together a portfolio. Maybe...
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My grandmother finally died. She'd been sick a long time, and had been in a residential hospice for the last month or so. I don't know how I feel about it. I'm not sad. Not yet, anyway. More relieved that it's over, and she's not suffering any more.
And guilty because the last time I visited was a week ago last Sunday.
My grandfather will...
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And guilty because the last time I visited was a week ago last Sunday.
My grandfather will...
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flux:
I know how you feel about your grandma. Mine is deteriorating rapidly enough into Alzheimer's that a gentle passing would seem a blessing. But I'm sorry that she's gone.
As for the cold, yes, I am a wimp. HARRUMPH!
As for the cold, yes, I am a wimp. HARRUMPH!
flux:
It's a joke disguised as an actual belief, or maybe the other way around. But I do like the idea of fucking being a source of cosmic power and woo woo goodness.
And, yes, I too plan to take the Roman path when it comes to that time.
And, yes, I too plan to take the Roman path when it comes to that time.
I admit it; I have a thing for redheads. Some attractive women from TV land who have red hair:
- Laura Prepon, That 70s Show
- Jennifer Morrison, House
- Gillian Anderson, The X-Files
- Alicia Witt, Law and Order: Criminal Intent
Yes, I was pretty excited when I found out that Alicia Witt would be the new detective on Criminal Intent. I've always liked her. Also, she hasn't...
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snazzy:
I love that movie! But what suddenly inspired you to send it to me? I am baffled?
trixie:
the whole trying one thing, feeling terrible, getting off and trying another thing does really not sound fun. I wish they could just scan our brains and say okay this is the exact pill that will make you less of nut.
You feel a lot better now though? And it's better for you than being on nothing at all? Wat does the valium do for you>
You feel a lot better now though? And it's better for you than being on nothing at all? Wat does the valium do for you>
God bless you, Dr. C. God bless you, diazapam. And God bless you, Mr. Rosewater.
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snazzy:
I do! But they don't have many things there that vibrate, or I should say, they don't have many things that vibrate safely enough to put them in my cooter region! 
snazzy:
UGH. 
That's all I can say, just UGH.
That's all I can say, just UGH.Chapter Three
The bed and ceiling have become the extent of my world. I'm really spiking. How many days has it been? I can definitely count three; there's no mistaking those three. But looking back, I think it began before then. Monday, probably, was the first. The beginning of the spike. It started off quietly, and built in a thundering crescendo.
It's been a long,...
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The bed and ceiling have become the extent of my world. I'm really spiking. How many days has it been? I can definitely count three; there's no mistaking those three. But looking back, I think it began before then. Monday, probably, was the first. The beginning of the spike. It started off quietly, and built in a thundering crescendo.
It's been a long,...
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trixie:
Thank you for that lovely comment.
But really now, it's not bout self image or confidence. I just like playing with nice boobs.
But really now, it's not bout self image or confidence. I just like playing with nice boobs.
claudette:
My roof's good. Well, it's leaking, but I'm supposed to be getting a new one put on in a few weeks to fix that. Hopefully I can convince someone to spray some insulation while they're up there as well. I really do hate the cold - and it's fast approaching.
As for your blog - fuckin' eh.
As for your blog - fuckin' eh.
Chapter Two
(Read Chapter One)
It's Saturday night, and I'm still lying in bed. I took a shower in hopes of going out and getting drunk out of my mind, but I went back to staring at the ceiling, and so far I haven't moved. It's too bad; alcohol would be a good substitute for the unattainable Valium. I could use it more than...
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(Read Chapter One)
It's Saturday night, and I'm still lying in bed. I took a shower in hopes of going out and getting drunk out of my mind, but I went back to staring at the ceiling, and so far I haven't moved. It's too bad; alcohol would be a good substitute for the unattainable Valium. I could use it more than...
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ele:
i'd love a big dog, I want a german shepard but the place we're moving into doesn't really have enough room for such a big breed. And they get this nasty flesh eating disease, which is kind of nothing I want to deal with.
Newfoundlands are monsters! In size, not in personality though.
Newfoundlands are monsters! In size, not in personality though.
Chapter One
Lying in bed late on a Saturday morning with only my anxiety for company, I wished I had some Valium and could submerge myself in a mindless oblivion. Instead I mused on the events--or maybe a single event, replayed over and over--that brought my life to this point. My thoughts ran through my mind on an endless loop, like a song stuck in...
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Lying in bed late on a Saturday morning with only my anxiety for company, I wished I had some Valium and could submerge myself in a mindless oblivion. Instead I mused on the events--or maybe a single event, replayed over and over--that brought my life to this point. My thoughts ran through my mind on an endless loop, like a song stuck in...
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faded247:
Hey Man words spoken so truely I have been there for a long time!!
necia:
As it turns out, no. It was taken with an old Polaroid. I bought some film for this camera I'd had kicking around since I got it at a thrift store when I was about eleven, and I never had film for it.
I got about seven shots through the first pack and it freaked out and stopped working. I ruined the last three pics trying to fix it, then put in the second pack of film and got three shots in before it again freaked out. I left the film in there in the hopes that it'll either start working again or I'll get ahold of another one. I know that Polaroid cameras can be had for about $30--but that one was all old and vintagey and cool.
And you've actually talked to me, so you're not random anymore. If you've had it with friends, though, do with that what you wish.
I'm sorry to hear about the infighting in your head. I hate that.
I got about seven shots through the first pack and it freaked out and stopped working. I ruined the last three pics trying to fix it, then put in the second pack of film and got three shots in before it again freaked out. I left the film in there in the hopes that it'll either start working again or I'll get ahold of another one. I know that Polaroid cameras can be had for about $30--but that one was all old and vintagey and cool.
And you've actually talked to me, so you're not random anymore. If you've had it with friends, though, do with that what you wish.
I'm sorry to hear about the infighting in your head. I hate that.
Please disregard yesterday's scream for help. Life is a mess. I'm confused. I don't know how to do these people things.
An Open Letter
Dear you,
It's been a bad week. What's wrong? I'm sure I've alluded to it here before, but I've probably never said it directly. To put it simply, my brain chemistry is fucked up. Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. Panic attacks. Recurrent major clinical depression. Dysthemia.
I'm drugged to the gills with Effexor, and exercise really helps, but I still struggle. Some days are better...
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Dear you,
It's been a bad week. What's wrong? I'm sure I've alluded to it here before, but I've probably never said it directly. To put it simply, my brain chemistry is fucked up. Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. Panic attacks. Recurrent major clinical depression. Dysthemia.
I'm drugged to the gills with Effexor, and exercise really helps, but I still struggle. Some days are better...
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You all ready for some hard rockin'? Big hair? Songs about groupies? Maybe some power ballads? It's the 80s!
And awaaay we go!
Because I'm feeling a bit of misogyny today:
For the sadness:
Need I say it? Slash is one bad mother fucker.
And awaaay we go!
Because I'm feeling a bit of misogyny today:
For the sadness:
Need I say it? Slash is one bad mother fucker.
Man, what a bad day. I'm pissed off. And I can feel one of my turns coming on. 
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claudette:
I wish. I was actually sitting in the dark cursing alot for about four hours before just going to bed. Fucking storm.
claudette:
It's funny, I think I'd take water over power - but I'd never thought of that 'til now. I've had my water out for weeks at a time because my plumbings older than time and I need pipes replaced constantly, but I've learned to live with it. Electricity though, it really puts a damper on everything. I kept flipping light switches and saying, "oh." Thinking about watching tv and thinking, "oh." Browsing the internet? Doing laundry? Cooking? Nope. I ended up lighting every candle in the house and filing away at a piece of jewelry I've been working on. Productive, but it would have been a hell of a lot better with Antiques Roadshow that's for sure.
I just visited my grandma at her new digs, the North Memorial residential hospice. It's really a nice place, despite its depressing nature. Her room looks out on the lake, so there are ducks and geese. She said that deer walk past her window. She also has a bird feeder just outside. Her room is nice; she can put her own pictures up and...
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snazzy:
Yup, that's what my main point was in the SG Lounge. That I am not comfortable with censorship, but that if this were MY site I wouldn't want that kind of content being displayed.
snazzy:
I'm sure the curiosity is getting the better of you with all the hub-bub going on around here, but believe me, you'll live without ever seeing it, I promise!
It'll be purple, pink, and black tomorrow.
Oh yes, there will be pictures.
♥