sian_the_zombie

hmmm well heres goes a little rant

im pretty fed up at the mo

went to the doctors and was diagnosed with depression.. GREAT!
got me some anti depressants pfffftt
i knew i was down but i didnt think it was this bad...

i mean yeh im a 20 yr old mother ..

i work with millie 24/7 i knew it would b hard but not this hard..
i dont get to go out

i havent been out properly in fucking ages
and its getting to me

i saw my friend whos the same age as me with her kid the other day .. and its father they r still together and getting married

and it made me sit and cry .. because i hate the fact that millie's dad isnt there.. hes never met her.. doesnt even know how old she is what she looks like.. doesnt give me any money
and how i would kill to have him there to help me out
to give me a little time off

its all getting to me and i cant cope anymore
yes shes the most wonderful thing ever
but i really cant do it
i cant cope..


i really need some cheering up
i shouldnt be like this at xmas.. its not fair ..

i want my life back .
i know ive created a new wonderful life
but fuckkk

i need some me time