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shyla

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Tuesday Mar 09, 2010

Mar 9, 2010
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I can't get this out of my head:


I'm still in Colorado staying with my pops. I love it here, even though I'm super discouraged right now.
I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with myself at this point. I've been looking for a job for over two months now. When I first came out here I was job hunting like it was my religion. I've certainly slowed down a bit only because every place I went in to apply at said I was perfect for a job there but no one is hiring right now. You pretty much have to know someone who will get you a job somewhere and everyone I've talked to has been no help.
I don't want to go back to Chicago until I know what happens next. I don't see the point in going back to Chicago to get my things and hoping to get a job in Colorado while I'm there. Just doesn't make any sense to me.
I've been working on a project for my Grandpa's business. I might eventually get a job out of it. For now, I've earned a new laptop since my last one broke. The project is almost finished so we'll see how that ends up for me.
Speaking of being discouraged, I've seriously contemplated giving up on SG. I feel like my last two sets were good enough to be bought or at least do well as far as comments and whatever but they both did absolutely shitty. I don't think I'll be able to shoot anything better in the future so I'm not even sure I'll try to shoot anymore. frown
I feel really lost right now, not being able to find a job, not sure where I'm going to be living in a month, not knowing when I'll be able to go back to Chicago, and I feel like I've lost my closest friends.
Don't get me wrong though, I'm not depressed in the slightest right now. I know this seems like a bitch blog but to me it's more of a mind vent of everything I've been thinking of and not sure what to do about any of it. I'm very content with my lift right now even with my feeling of being lost and unknowing. I love being in Colorado and being close to my family.
That past month has been great!!! I'll post some pictures and share more stories in a future blog and I'll try to be more active on here. This site is great when it comes to the people who make it. I would probably stay on SG just for the community even if I'm not shooting sets or being an active SG.
Enough rambling for now.....
::MORE LATER::
lovelovelove
VIEW 14 of 14 COMMENTS
cymagen:
Regardless of whether you stay on this site don't leave CO ! I'll be there soon and I need friends ! You'll have a jorb soon i'm sure smile
Mar 17, 2010
superchibisan:
oi im back in colorado for a week or so if you want to get together and rock faces
Mar 19, 2010

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