shyboy33_3

I was looking through my very very very hugh CD collection today, I really really hate being home I feel like every day is groundhog day or some shit...any way I was feelin in the mood to hear some shit I haven't heard in a long time.......I came across this song by TOMMY LEE....you know the fuckn drummer from MOTLEY CRUE one of the loudest most kick ass band sof the 80's early 90's..........and while listening I realized thast the lyrics to this song pretty much sum up how my life is going right now as far a my working and accomplishing anything in the gad damn music business



Hold Me Down

i don't make everyone happy... but it's ok..
i've been through this before
it's nothin new.. nothin new

i don't know why everytime i wanna fly
somebody always tries
to hold me down... hold me down...
i'm losing my faith every single time i try
no one is on my side
don't let me drown... let me drown

don't worry about whatcha done now cause it's ok
it's a test to see how much you can take.. it's nothin new

i don't know why everytime i wanna fly
somebody always tries
to hold me down... hold me down...
i'm losing my faith every single time i try
no one is on my side
don't let me drown... let me drown

i am drowning... i am sinking... yeah


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Shit I don't think it get much clearer then that.......everytime I seem to get a handle on a direction to go or get a chance to make somethin of my self.....Or get the chance to talk to someone that could posible help point me in the right direction there is always someone in the band that I am workin for now that shits all over my happiness......probably becasue they are pissed of that I know there is more out there in the music world other then the level of the game that this band is on.........I'll put it to you this way.............There are many levels of play.......

Garage Band-----------teen agers rockin out
Local Bar Band---------teen agers playin out
Bar band----------------20 somthin's playin out
Regional Band----------gettin some exposer pretty well known
National Band----------everyone in your hometown knows you
World Wide Rock Stars-----------self x-planatory

So now with that said the level I am workin with is GLORIFIED BAR BAND.............a catagory of their own

I'm not gonna sit hear a glorify this band and I'm not gonna tell you how much they have accomplished cause I'm pretty sure no one has heard of this band......(If you really want to know e-mail me)

This band is of the calibur that shoul dbe playing 5 out of 7 nights a week, playing shows at theaters and small clubs BUT NO....we play mostly on the weekends and just about all summer long but once it becomes COLD out we sort of go in to hibernation................

All I want to do is work for a club that is playing my type of music.....
or a band that is on the road more then 2 days a week

Or hell even better then that I just want to work somewhere doing audio enginering on a daily basis and not have to work 2 fuck in jobs.........................

shit I thought that I woul dfel better after lettin all that out but NO I DON"T DAMN IT...........

I can't stand livin 200 miles away from most of my friends
and right now there is not much I can do about it........