shristy

Hey SG world...

I need some good advice....

I have this really bad insecurity issue when it comes to relationships...
because of this issue i end up w/idiots or fucking up wtf i got thats good...

needless to say...

im a/b to fuck up what i think is a good thing... but im not sure...


see...

i have been lied to, cheated on, played, beat down an treated like shit... most of my life...


its gotten to where its kinda hard to believe someone COULD LOVE ME!!! and really love me!!!...
Everyone who is sapose to love me... has let me down...
How do i trust that someone will be there an really care???
and how is it that someone who cares can just want to leave an use that all the time in a fight???

an now i gotta good person in my life... that does alot for me... pays bills i cant pay... buys things i need.... an opens doors for me an fixes anything i need...

but doesnt...

hardly ever hold me when i cry... gets mad at me kuz im a cry baby... says they dnt wanna b with me kuz i went in there phone an found naked pix of another girl who clearly is obsessed its been a problem the whole 2 yrs we been together an its still not fixed.... this person never just holds me an tells me its ok to be upset or even ask y i am upset... instead i hear i need to buck up an be the strong NY that they thought i was... well guess what!!!
EVEN THE STRONGEST NEWYORKER HAS A BREAKING POINT!!!

i have BEEN STRONG FOR YEARS....
for so long...
IDK HOW TO BE STRONG NE MORE!!!

im a wreck an need some TLC but dnt get it...

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG... OR HOW TO FIX IT???