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shpeecialz

Kalispell, MT

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Tuesday Feb 14, 2012

Feb 14, 2012
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04 PM ...Most recent spoken word I've written. First time I've published it online at all, very sensitive subject for me so please be gentle with feedback however constructive criticism is ALWAYS welcome of course! I've already edited this like 20 times and it still doesn't feel right so.... here it is.

Cant move again Im frozen Im dead Thought it was gone Ran it out of my head Two fuckin songs in a row Lost from memory bout a decade or so Angry, tense tears beginning to flow

Pushing the Daddys never there Instantly locked in this frozen stare Irrational thoughts, ideas, notions Silencing truth, worry, and care.

Yet 20 years later here I lye Begging for mercy a better way to die All the while curious, wondering why? I thought tough bitches didnt cry

(will write a verse or two to create a connection)

HOOK 1x

*Let me lead you on into this poets next chapter and while my story continues on Ill guarantee warm laughter with suicide-stained emotions lingerin months, weeks, days after*

So now shes walking through the door shit-eating grin coverin her face And thats all it took, youre done shes in Fucked situation and a wasted disgrace

..Sittin u down at the table Settin a comfortable place.

With unjustifiable gratification And uncontrollable salivation Youd kill for just one tiny taste and Obsession bred for pure motivation Attaining the goal of pure penetration

HOOK 2x

Sitting naked on the bed Staring at nothing for hours on end Asking you frantically how I got here or if this nightmare will ever end?

Now this agonizing emotional baggage? simply think of it as a care package Or a door-prize if you will, to some Well Chuck lets tell her what shes won?

A face still overrun with tears 10 unforgettable yet repressed years Reasons I still cant look in the mirror Without anticipation grabbing me, screaming. Why the fuck am I still here?

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