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shpeecialz

Kalispell, MT

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Sunday Feb 27, 2011

Feb 27, 2011
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A new book
First page
Looking for a new future
Brain spinnin outta my head
Thoughtless, mindless self endangerment
Mutilation of the soul

remind myself not so long ago
happiness unfantasized
just hopelesness I'd chastisized

Now pacing uncontrollably
with this presence of obsession
Dreaming into desintigration
That dream now lost and I might as well be dead

Mindless reckless endangerment
and I might as well be dead

Head spinning, tortured soul
and I might as well be dead

No longer a feeling within my control
and I might as well be dead

Faith now lost with this empty future
and I might as well be dead

....AND I MIGHT AS WELL.....

BE dead.

confused shpeecialzconfused




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jonas_thorazine:
Let us know you're still alive, please! kiss
Jun 14, 2011
shpeecialz:
Still alive and im backkkkkkkk wink

Nov 24, 2011

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