shpeecialz

I have eight hand written pages of emotion poured onto a notepad from one night of mad scientist-creativity and this is all I have edited so far. Please feel free to comment as I am very eager to get feedback

10/9/2009: A four page rant of emotion including loss of control. Later creating a calm of the storm
(PAUSE 2,3) and adding understanding.

On a roll
Losing Control
This time is it worth paying the toll?
My heart sinking in and Compression begins

And As I thought I was over this
Feeling ah Ill never miss
Your touch now so cold
Intentions too bold
And all these memories. Faded and old


Lying right next to you
Nothing to do
Not at all AT ALL thought through
Take it back, that awful sight
The dreams awaking me each night

And yet I sit here and create
A brighter future, uncommon existence
Pure and innocent standing here,
waiting, dreaming, awake now, believing
,,, the past now receding
Any affection deceiving
on my knees dying, pleading
to help stop the bleeding....



(this is only half of a page so far edited....more to come....)

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