shotonsight

So anyways. It is like one of my first nights off in a while.I work at a intense training house for mentally retarted developmentally disabled (mrdd) clients who also happen to be predatory sex offenders. They aren't like downsyndrome or low functioning residents. They are more like really messed up 9 year olds in 21-40 year old bodies. Their iq's range from about 70 to 103. In all reality they are victims of the foster/procter home system or severly traumatized by being residents in the now defunct Fairview state hospital. on with the story, my ois (oregon intervention system) liscense expired so i had to sit thru 24 hours of sensitivity training and non aggressive restraint training in 2 days. I really think that i have been traumatized by this. I come home and notice my roomate had done some things to piss me off.. left food in the living room. used my last mach3 razor..and left porn in the vcr. anyways . i automatically told my self..he is using food as a comfort..he must be stressed.. he must of had a bad self image so he thought using my razor would improve it..he is watching porn to relieve his built up tension with his g/f...Maybe i should confront the situation..redirect his attention and avoid setting off his emotional escelation cycle. Give him positive incentive to change his actions...what the fuck!! damn you brain!!.. you have betrayed me! The first thought in my head should of been.. defile his toothbrush..piss in his mouthwash.. pour cooking oil in his shampoo... but no. I have been changed into Mr.fucking Hug and kiss...the happy psuedo-psychologist. I shall fight this.. any suggestions? ..think a couple night train and vodka cocktails followed with some porn and demerol will do the trick?