sholing

So, i'm internally confused. i need a job. i'm having some issues with a company that hired me on, but i feel like i might be taking advantage of people, or i could be really helping them. it's a strange company. But if i feel in my soul i shouldn't do it then i shouldn't , right? i just have all this outside pressures to do something great. or at least get a job that pays pretty well. seeing as how i'm a college grad. now my parents and others around are expecting me to be something other than a waitress . understandable, i want to be something other than a waitress too, but i feel like i'm not prepared. Actuallu, i'm petrified of becoming something i don't want to be, what if i get stuck in some passionless job. I don't want to die inside cause my job leaves me unsatisfied. i don't want to give up my life to make some cash. i'm so broke. i have nineteen dollars to my name right now.. i don't know..scary shit.
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yea i've made a choice! ohhoo..so dramatic