This is so stupid, I have become so naive, or maybe I just always was. I don't know. A girl at work today, who I just met a week ago pointed out to me that I'm passive-aggressive...which I know, but refuse to actually do anything about....
blah. 1000 markdowns at work. Two more days of work left before my days off.
Heh, I'm back with Jackie, well not "with," but you know...hang out with. She MADE me show her my boobs today! Well not naked boobs, boobs in a bra that I was trying on...but still. Tsk. I don't do that.
My friend, whose maid of honour I am, decided that her wedding colours are pink and silver, and she wants the dress I wear to be silver...
Eh. I miss Peter and my sanity. I miss feeling whole. I miss my perfect perfect wonderful 3 year relationship that I threw away. I miss being in love, and feeling loved. I miss missing someone who misses me just as much. Whatever.
I don't think anyone will ever love me as much as he loved me, or understand me as much, or put up with so much.
I wish I could just stay in the year 2001 forever, just live it over and over.
I took him for granted, I really thought we would always be together. I don't want it back, because in the end we just didn't like each other anymore...but I would want 2001 back....or..not back. I don't know. Why does this feel like so much wasted time? What have I been thinking this past year? Nothing has changed in a year, no progress made. Will I always be here? Hmmm...no more listening to Depeche Mode tonight...time for bed.
blah. 1000 markdowns at work. Two more days of work left before my days off.
Heh, I'm back with Jackie, well not "with," but you know...hang out with. She MADE me show her my boobs today! Well not naked boobs, boobs in a bra that I was trying on...but still. Tsk. I don't do that.
My friend, whose maid of honour I am, decided that her wedding colours are pink and silver, and she wants the dress I wear to be silver...
Eh. I miss Peter and my sanity. I miss feeling whole. I miss my perfect perfect wonderful 3 year relationship that I threw away. I miss being in love, and feeling loved. I miss missing someone who misses me just as much. Whatever.
I don't think anyone will ever love me as much as he loved me, or understand me as much, or put up with so much.
I wish I could just stay in the year 2001 forever, just live it over and over.
I took him for granted, I really thought we would always be together. I don't want it back, because in the end we just didn't like each other anymore...but I would want 2001 back....or..not back. I don't know. Why does this feel like so much wasted time? What have I been thinking this past year? Nothing has changed in a year, no progress made. Will I always be here? Hmmm...no more listening to Depeche Mode tonight...time for bed.
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Sorry you feel down. I was in a relationship that crashed and burned too but it will get better over time. Dont lament was has happened before. Use your frustrations to shape your future rather than was has already occurred. Dont give up on things..