Today was a rough ne and I am not going to lie, I was not feeling it at all. Guess the thoughts ran over me today in a major way. I feel I am pulling back from life and friends. Decided not to associate with some over the next few weeks, like my pre-planning? It's nothing against them of course, I just don't feel safe around others.
The more I think about my changing for the better, the more I don't want people in. I am a recluse for sure, yet at heart, I love to be around others and have fun.
My past was a nasty one, I feel abandoned, I don't trust well and I shut people out. I am way too fucking nice, basically I let others walk all over me, like a rug you wipe your feet on. I have gotten better, it's just not good enough.
My best friends are ones that don't talk, they understand me, are there for me and don't judge me at all.
The voice inside me is really POWERFUL at the moment and is driving me now. I have no control, its in the drivers seat.
Being better is what I cherish.
The more I think about my changing for the better, the more I don't want people in. I am a recluse for sure, yet at heart, I love to be around others and have fun.
My past was a nasty one, I feel abandoned, I don't trust well and I shut people out. I am way too fucking nice, basically I let others walk all over me, like a rug you wipe your feet on. I have gotten better, it's just not good enough.
My best friends are ones that don't talk, they understand me, are there for me and don't judge me at all.
The voice inside me is really POWERFUL at the moment and is driving me now. I have no control, its in the drivers seat.
Being better is what I cherish.