Blonde Moment # 84,569 (but who's counting?):
Poured cereal in the catfood bowl. I even almost poured soymilk on top of it. I don't know if cats dig soymilk.
I'm watching bad cable TV and getting my fill of disgusting popculture and guiltily enjoying it.
Jessica Simpson - or is it the other one? - says something so sickeningly stupid about love or life or something that shouldn't be trivialized this way, goddammit, that the novelty of watching idiots bare themselves for the camera is lost and not even funny anymore and I can't... Read More
I could quote neitzche at ya, but there is really only a few known cures when you mind throws anxiety on you. One is to stop watching TV because its main objective is to scare you into buying something. Another is go downtown and laugh at how tackey reno is and how beutifully disgusting it is.
But what you really want to do is this: Go buy a copy of Brian Eno's Another Green World (best buy has them). Get a bottle of saki and body pillow. heat the saki, Roll a joint. Put the album on, smoke the joint and do a couple shots of saki. begin to masterbate, but don't loose focus on the album, bite the pillow if you have to. Try to climax just as robert fripp peaks the guitar solo on St. elmo's fire. Once you've come melt into the rest of the record and hot saki. You'll either loose your mind or wake a new person. Either way it is change. Which brings us back to Neitzche. -shua
i just got back from driving over Mt. Rose...I hate when it snows and i especially hate driving in the dark when its snowing. oh well. i'll get over it soon enough
Im feeling disgusting and disgusted, and I turn on the TV, which I know will make it worse but I do it anyway. I turn on the TV and theres a Valentines Day commercial for diamonds, a man giving a woman a ring and she gasping and crying at the sentimentality and love and perfection and promise of it all.
I have to say I admire you for going through a struggle like this, and still coming out saying that you are becoming youself and "it's fucking okay." You are to be admired, respected, and loved. You fucking rock.
[Aries: "Out on the road today I saw Black Flag sticker on a Cadillac. A little voice inside my head said don't look back you can never look back." I'd burned that song, after actually buying the CD itself, onto my portable music player. I didn't like much of the album, but that one lyric just tickled my funny bone, and it... Read More
Congratulations baby! I swear to god, you're really on top of your game.
(^7)
Not this time, but I have done it more than once.
Everyday will make you more strong. They may not be easy, but there are far more benefits to the path you have chosen.