shinracorp

today things are fucked up in my head. i didnt sleep last night because my half conscious mind thought i was being attacked by a ghost and also i got in a terrible fight with my brother yesterday.

todays snow flurries seemed to me the first real time i payed attention to snow with a fascination like when i was a child... maybe even the first time i saw snow. smells wafted through my nostrils like i have never smelled them. things swayed in the wind in the parking lot at work, they made me nervous...

... i feel like my subconscious mind is trying to prepare me for death. its inevitable and i need to face it sooner or later... lately ive been thinking it might be sooner.



i feel like napping for a week.