shin

Well reality hit me about a day ago and i realized I need to move on so lately ive tried to be a bit more cheery etc. I talked to my ex after I wrote that last journal and she claims she just wants a break... I am really leery about it considering the way she has acted within the past 3 days... I am pretty sure this is something she has been considering since we argued about her trip to VA a month ago... Im not sure whether we will get back together and "work" things out or not the fact that the "break" in her eyes will end after she returns from VA makes me wonder just exactly what she plans to do that with her roomate... But anyways life goes on... what doesnt kill you makes you stronger right?

Right now work is becoming un bearble I am convinced the management at Quaker are idiots... just when things are moving smooth they go and screw things up... I am so happy I got that new job last week... I think this time I will never take desk work for granted again.. considering what I have had to do work wise the past year, I got my tax returns today too... over five hundred.. which is going right into savings other wise Ill do something foolish like buy a electric guitar or something... besides I can do that after I start my new job. Which leaves me with the problem of how to leave the old one... I know if i tell them I havea new job they will just let me go right then and I need to at least get enough cash to cover rent for next month other wise Im boned... Ah well the future is still looking good... Maybe I can share said future with Kayla... or maybe I was meant to find someone else... I'll leave it to fate...whatever ever tommorow brings Il be there with open arms and open eyes ... Im learning how to play that song right now my wooden gf(guitar ) keeps me company these days lol