Thursday Dec 13, 2007

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My friend's ex has gotten laid seven times... like, since he lost his virginity about a year and a half ago, I'd say.

You have no clue how sad this makes me.

...That seven women would sleep with him.... I assume they're women. Actually, I think some aren't, but we won't find that out for some time.

I haven't even gotten laid by seven people.

I know I've had more than seven people want to fuck me... but around here that number drastically dwindles, at least out of the guys I know for a fact want to, I guess if I asked some guys "Hey, wanna fuck?" they'd be like "Yes please". I don't mind not being like him, I guess... just... is he that much more charismatic than I am? Like, to find seven girls to get with I imagine he had to do some good talking, 'cause I personally don't see why anybody who looked at him and then talked to him would... maybe it's 'cause I'm prefer to be approached than to approach. Hrm.

Rambling about my love-life behind the spoiler:

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We went to wal-mart after Rob and I got back together and he kept kissing me as we were walking through the aisles, I'm such a fucking pushover... And then he started holding my hand, which he hadn't done since we started hanging out again 'til that night. And then he gave me a goodbye kiss, which he hadn't done 'til then... I noticed it especially 'cause now that I have a boyfriend Zach was acting more like mine again. He called me the other day and when he found out I had been arguing with Rob he wanted to know what about, but I distracted him. And then the other day, after trying to hang out 3 days in a row, I get a call from him asking what I was doing. I was at work, I told him so. He said he would let me go, I asked if he was free that night 'cause I was about to be off work, he told me "No, I just wanted to see what you were doing." I found that really odd. And yes, Rob knows I've kissed him.. he isn't thrilled, but we're working out the details of the relationship now. I think it's unfair that I've held to my bargain I made under the assumption he would make more of an effort... the only thing is, if he doesn't want us to be as serious as we were, I think since he gave me a month to get back in touch with Zach then he has no right to be mad, as I made my promise when we'd been broken up a week and I thought things would just return to how they were... except I act better and he tries harder. He's trying, but not near as much as he should. I'm thinking of telling him that once we have a visit, if things go well I'll gladly cut Zach out.. at least the kissing him and stuff... but as it stands I don't feel like my emotional or physical needs are getting met, so I'd like to relieve at least one of those problems.



Apparently people like this photo enough to tell me:

This is my new scarf and hat, by the way. Now I just need snow, please!

I have the 20th off to hang out with a certain SG member, although I don't think he reads my blog so he won't see this... but if he doesn't hang out with me when I had to request off I will be mad. And hopefully he will see this and make plans.

I haven't seen any of my friends in a week, work is stressing me out but I'm getting lots of money... which then goes to bills and stuff... but hopefully soon I'll be caught up, and I'm done Christmas shopping, so I just have to pay off my Macy's card now... although I bought myself a few things with it, too... which is why it's as much as it is (almost $200, which would be covered in a paycheck if I really wanted to).

My car is making funny noises, we think it's the breaks from what I thought and described... so I have to get that fixed Monday, hopefully it won't cost much. *crossing fingers* After Monday, though, I hope I can hang out with somebody! But Monday is my day off, and I'll be stuck at the house. Fucking sucks.

I want to be able to shop at Sephora! Maybe once I've gotten caught up on all my bills. I'm hoping somebody takes a hint from the wish-list I made for Christmas and gives me a gift card to there... but there's so much stuff, I don't know what I'd pick... and I have other things I want elsewhere. I'd like to go get a makeover, too... I need to schedule one, but I want a friend to come with me and I have no offers. I just hope I survive to Christmas, I'm so worn out with work.

We put up the Christmas tree today, it's smaller than we usually get, but that's ok... just now my arm hurts frown

I was going to say more...worthwhile stuff, but I haven't eaten so I got lazy...
wyldewolfe:
good luck with work and your car as well as your love life
hope everything else is working out for you

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