So my job is gonna be full-time! The position came open, the guy gave it to me! Awesome. I start Sunday, I hope things work out and I do well. I'm so paranoid I'll do bad, but surely I'll be better than some of the people I see who work there... some of them creep me out.
My ex-boyfriend, the one who I dated while dating Rob (with both of their full knowledge), Zach, just left a little bit ago.
He's helping to keep me a little more sane over this breakup by being my sexual outlet, except for we haven't actually done anything yet.
...Yet, haha.
Ok, maybe we've done a bit, but mostly making out
Augh, I've missed making out so much...and Zach's gotten much better. He'll grab onto my hair and pull me into kisses even when I try to say no, which I think is fucking hot. If I try to pull away he just holds on tighter...mm.
It just sucks he chose to come to my house and my mom was about to be home, and my mom still is all grumpy about that kind of stuff even though I'm 21. She was mad we were in my room, haha. Because to old people bedroom=sex when to me any room=place to have sex.
I'm still working on getting Rob back, though... but I'm tired of rambling about that. People don't get it because I know it seems different from the outside, and I know everybody says that about their relationship but I know the truth. I actually felt more hopeful today than I had in a long time.
I think Zach hasn't asked me out 'cause he's enjoying commitment-less action, as I am....and because he knows I'm determined to get Rob back. It's like we're going on dates, but not... he and I always had a weird relationship. I found out some interesting shit about him, haha. I enjoyed telling him one of my dirty secrets, too. It's a bit different now, I'm more comfortable telling him stuff, and he seems to be a bit more open. Maybe it's 'cause he lost interest in his DS.
And now I'm off to hang out with my friend, or I'd ramble more.
My ex-boyfriend, the one who I dated while dating Rob (with both of their full knowledge), Zach, just left a little bit ago.
He's helping to keep me a little more sane over this breakup by being my sexual outlet, except for we haven't actually done anything yet.
...Yet, haha.
Ok, maybe we've done a bit, but mostly making out
Augh, I've missed making out so much...and Zach's gotten much better. He'll grab onto my hair and pull me into kisses even when I try to say no, which I think is fucking hot. If I try to pull away he just holds on tighter...mm.
It just sucks he chose to come to my house and my mom was about to be home, and my mom still is all grumpy about that kind of stuff even though I'm 21. She was mad we were in my room, haha. Because to old people bedroom=sex when to me any room=place to have sex.
I'm still working on getting Rob back, though... but I'm tired of rambling about that. People don't get it because I know it seems different from the outside, and I know everybody says that about their relationship but I know the truth. I actually felt more hopeful today than I had in a long time.
I think Zach hasn't asked me out 'cause he's enjoying commitment-less action, as I am....and because he knows I'm determined to get Rob back. It's like we're going on dates, but not... he and I always had a weird relationship. I found out some interesting shit about him, haha. I enjoyed telling him one of my dirty secrets, too. It's a bit different now, I'm more comfortable telling him stuff, and he seems to be a bit more open. Maybe it's 'cause he lost interest in his DS.
And now I'm off to hang out with my friend, or I'd ramble more.
your close by
we share a freind or two on our friends list
thought I would say hi