shimarisu

Rob and I broke up.

I've gotten 3-4 hours of sleep and I woke up at 7:30, started crying, and have been crying since.

I'm heartbroken and I can't stop crying... he's been really sweet to me, and he's the only person who can really calm me down to where I stop crying and can laugh...

But what am I supposed to do when everyone's advice to possibly get him back is to give him space? I could lose him either way, and he wants us to still talk and everything... What if he doesn't come back?

He said he loves me but he's not in love with me, I don't get it... but people have tried to explain to me... I think a bit of me does, because I am in love with him and love him... but I honestly think he's just confused. But people's trying to explain doesn't make it any better, because Rob says he doesn't get it himself really.

And I'm terrified he won't realize he loves me still, and this will be the end.

But he says he still loves me, and will always love me... because I'm his first love. And I'll always be his best friend... and he still wants us to talk and I can call him and everything 'cause he still likes talking to me. And he'll still tell me he loves me, and not just when I say it to him.

This hurts so much. It's not like we had a fight or we weren't a good couple, we're one of the best if not the best couple I've ever seen together.... There's no reason we can't work out, and we were joking/talking once I calmed down last night about us retiring with our future spouses together...and about when our spouses died if we were both still alive us moving in together...

I don't understand what the problem is.