shimarisu

I got my shift tomorrow covered since they scheduled me while I had class, but I still may show up and try to get all my hours... I'm not sure.

I saw my ex and one of his buddies (they were both co-workers of mine for awhile), and my friend and I stood and talked to them for a long time, almost an hour if not more or a little less. God, I wish I was still dating him. I've gotten over the racing heart and freaking out around him, but I still wish I hadn't been stupid... It wasn't the healthiest relationship.... but he's actually attractive. Pretty damn attractive, and I didn't realize how amazing it was that I got somebody that good looking. I have confidence now, but I still don't see it. Since I dated him while dating my current boyfriend, I still see myself dating him and us going along with our laid back relationship... we never argued, we just enjoyed each other's company.

Plus, it's getting harder for me to be satisfied with no physical affection or attention for months at a time, and if he was around I wouldn't have that problem. I never did anything with him really, but I find myself wishing I had.

And he was so hot.

Daaaaaaaaamn.

In more worthy news, I talked to my manager today because I'd had it with my fellow supervisors. Hopefully I can handle a week without him, I gotta work on improving myself.