I could make a long post about work, but I won't. I will say that my co-workers took aside one of my friends who is applying for supervisor, and she tells me anything, she told me that they told her "We have yet to have a female supervisor live up to our expectations." I told her that's exactly what she'd have to go through, that even though I'm one of the two best supervisors we have (and I realize I have flaws, unlike the others... who are mostly egotistical). But I don't mind much, I know I'm good... and when I think back to when I first became a supervisor, I wasn't nearly as good as I am now... my first time walking into the supervisor meeting one of them said to me "Congratulations Sadie! You're the first female supervisor to be worth anything!"... He meant it, he doesn't compliment me that often.
And now I'm going to babble about the manga Gravitation.
I've been upset with Rob lately, we've been having phone issues and I just snap at him for them... albeit, most of them are on his end. I think I'm just grumpy.
I hate still having feelings two years later for people...staying friends with guys you almost dated can be hard... especially this guy. I mean, I still care for my ex boyfriend, I wish I was closer to my ex who is now dating one of my best friends (who, ironically, we met through when she moved)... I don't talk to either of them enough, I need to work on that. But this guy, we're very volatile, we'll fight... a lot, but we always miss each other and end up talking again. I think I can't stand him, then I realize I still like him... it's so confusing. I almost dated him, but chose Rob because we talked on the phone every night and were more like a couple... I actually had stronger feelings for the other guy... I think part of it was it would have been a change from my routine to have not chosen Rob, since I would've felt obligated at the time to not talk to him every night anymore. I love Rob, he's grown on me so much, I love him to pieces...but I can't help wanting to see what it's like with other people.
Of course, I'm pretty much fully over my last ex, and I thought I wouldn't be able to get over it after awhile...
My relationships are so crazy, and I make them that way... I guess. There are other guys, but I don't feel like going into it.
My co-worker was trying to figure out some deep, dark secret I have... his reasoning for me telling him was he'd be accepting 'cause he's a good listener and he's gay (that made me laugh so hard). I love him to death, I'm just not telling him any deep dark secrets. But he guessed that I was having orgys, possibly practicing incest... and then he asked if I was a prostitute, I laughed so hard. I was telling my friend the full story last night (I'm too lazy to type it all) and I realized I should have tried to convince him I'm a transexual.. to see if it'd work. Tell him my boobs are fake, I just had a really good doctor, and that my voice is deeper 'cause I was a man.... stuff like that. I doubt it'd work, but it'd be awesome if it did.
Let things roll off your back, because people tend to take things way too seriously...
Dating someone doesn't mean you're married, you can't be afraid of starting over if things are taking a turn...
Sometimes, you NEED to be single. This is very important...people tend to want relationships for a variety of reasons, and lonliness is a part of it. Do not afraid of being alone. Maybe you need to take a time out, and get to know yourself more and know what you're really looking for...don't just be in a relationship to be in one.