shifgrethor

So, I think I'm going to switch my major to mathematics. I don't think I can bring myself to finish my BSCS, after having worked for a couple of years, and gotten enough experience (meaning equally developing expertise and becoming jaded) to make taking classes on the fundamentals excruciating.

My reasoning for the moment is really no more substantial than I'm sick of CS classes (and immediately being able to see their complete lack of real-world applicability in relation my more esoteric technical interests) and math is what's in my face right now and its pretty fun, in an nerdish sort of way. Such a degree plus my experience would carry just as much vocational value, or nearly as much I'd think.

It also sort of boils down me trying to finagle my psyche into being more enthusiastic about school; it is in a way, an act distancing myself from negative past experiences, and centering myself in a realm of academic pursuit for its own sake.


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Fuckitty fuck fuck ... I just accidentaly deleted an important message on my message machine ...

Oh, the unrelenting frustrations of ineptitude.