shicawgo

You know whats weird?
Mint Jelly.

And ....when you think you should feel one way but deep down you don't feel that way at all....

What do you mean Shi???? Gimme a for instance...

Absolutely. FOR INSTANCE....SAY you have these "friends"....and they--no wait thats not a good one.... SAY your best friend got tickets to see Prince...or whatever super good music you like....and some things happens and your friend punks out and gives your ticket to someone else... you don't get to go to the concert with them....One would think your feelings would be hurt and that you'd be kinda resentful of the concert goers....

What happens when deep down you just understand...almost don't care? "oh well...Fuck it...I'll go next time...the tickets were free...if I really wanted to go I could've bought the tickets first when they we're on sale. No biggie. " What's that about? WHY DON'T I MIND? It bothers me more that I don't mind than that that in all reality my friend was totally bogus. What does that say ABOUT ME?

I'm all about me. I don't dislike myself in the least. I fully understand my worth. But why...WHY would I act in a way that screams that I don't understand my worth? I'm not someone who would ever allow herself to be readily put in second place all consolation prize style. Like all Bob Barker Price is Right parting gift in a pretty bow... Why now?

Is it because of who I am and my choices? Am I slipping?

Is it me.......or is it PRINCE?? Is it that I'm not meant to see PRINCE perform? I saw Blues Travler on New Years Ever of 1999 and they sang the Prince song...is that really good enough though? Is that enough?...I know I deserve the real thing. I believe that.

"When you call up that shrink in Beverly Hills, you know the one- Dr. Everything will be alright...."

I believe there's an answer. I'm trying to find it. I loathe awkwardness. If I get super awkward around someone it's a really bad thing because there's very few paths to follow once I've allowed someone to make me feel awkward. Immediate and irreversible retreat OR brutal full steam ahead, did ya get the number of that truck that just ran over my cat style honesty.


I'm going to Detroit for the weekend. Why? because I like Detroit. Yeah thats right. You heard me. I LIKE DETROIT. So all you haters who tell me it's a shithole can go eat your meals with an anorexic bitch who'll burn a hole in your heart for taking that second helping of water.... hog.

Anywho I should be back Monday or Tuesday...maybe Weds...who knows. I have no reason to come home anytime soon so me and my girls will be kickin it unrestricted. This weekend the moral rulebook is out the window. I'm tossin it. It's time to have a little fun maybe.... Who am I kidding? ...I'm the girl who holds back the hair of the crying drunk girls in the bathroom who I don't even know while they puke. It's at those times that I always think to myself that I need a bumper sticker that says "I'd rather be Crocheting."


Have a good weekend everyone. And Yes, I do mean everyone. :o)


CAN SOMEONE TELL ME SOMETHING GOOD THAT'S HAPPENED TO THEM LATELY? please?.......please?...........

ps... I'm changing my name on monday so don't think I dissappeared...i'll hunt yall down if you forget about me. And for the weekend before I leave for good so I have something fun to come home to....favorite Farley quote? Or fav snl person quote...

"I have cat-like speed and reflexes...."