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Ok, enough with my whiny ass last blog, thanks to those who humored me.

I am realizing that I have come to a point where I feel like I have to make some serious life changes in order for me to be truly happy. I have always hated the girls that "let themselves go" when they get a boyfriend, and I am creeping dangerously toward that category. Not to say my man picks on me, quite the opposite. He tells me I am beautiful all the time and I know he means that from the heart.

But, I need to do some shit to make myself better.

Quitting smoking is number one. I know my near death cough I have developed is just so sexy, ew. I have never tried before, and I am not so confident in myself with this issue. I feel like my heart is going to explode all the time, and that can't be good.

Convince myself that I don't have to have a shit ton of beer in my system to sleep every night.

Get my lazy ass up and run or do something healthy every day. I know I can, I have done it quite well in the past.

I just want to feel better, and not get up every day exhausted from shitty sleep. I wonder what it feels like to wake up feeling rested and clear headed, must be nice.

I put a bunch of Roky Erickson on my never used ipod, and will lean on that for inspiration tomorrow when I either go run (walk briskly) around the lake, or go to my gym here if it is raining. Wish me luck, I need help and inspiration.

I just need to get my shit together, and make me healthy and happy with me


I am not a particularly vain person, but I know my bad habits have taken a toll on me already, and I need to be stronger than them. It's gonna be hard. I just want to be pretty again.