I am absolutely, head over heels, in love with my husband. i've never felt anything to this depth before. Every fiber of my being aches that he's so far away right now.
I never felt this way with my ex. So in some way, I feel that I "cheated" him in not being the same person that I am with my husband. But we can't help how we feel. You can't "generate" something that isn't there.
That's not to say that he was wrong for me, because he was right for me at the beginning of the relationship. It really hit home with me, later, when I found out that he had tried to committ suicide, twice, after I left him - even though he was already married to someone else.So apparently we were both unhappy, were'nt we? Now he's on "drugs".
Of course, I was also left with the feeling of betrayal when I discovered that he had been in conversation with someone else for so long - and it was not even on my radar. God, how could I have missed that?
Sounds like your ex was having some problems too. Was he always like that, or did it develop over time?
Or, had he found someone else too?
If you hadn't been involved with Wyldechylde, would you have stayed and worked it out, or would you have left anyway, like I did?
I never felt this way with my ex. So in some way, I feel that I "cheated" him in not being the same person that I am with my husband. But we can't help how we feel. You can't "generate" something that isn't there.
That's not to say that he was wrong for me, because he was right for me at the beginning of the relationship. It really hit home with me, later, when I found out that he had tried to committ suicide, twice, after I left him - even though he was already married to someone else.So apparently we were both unhappy, were'nt we? Now he's on "drugs".
Of course, I was also left with the feeling of betrayal when I discovered that he had been in conversation with someone else for so long - and it was not even on my radar. God, how could I have missed that?
Sounds like your ex was having some problems too. Was he always like that, or did it develop over time?
Or, had he found someone else too?
If you hadn't been involved with Wyldechylde, would you have stayed and worked it out, or would you have left anyway, like I did?
I think we were good for eachother in the beggining, but then again, I was 19 and he was 13 yaers older than me,....I was naive, and thought it would be a fairy-tale...he proved me wrong....And your ex wasnt the only one, mine tried to commit suicide the day after I left him..I felt so incredibly guilty, I came so very close to going back, even though it would be all for the wrong reasons...I NEVER wanted to hurt him, but I knew it would, I just wasnt expecting to that extent...but I realize now, its another teqniquemof a controlling lonely person....I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown those first couple of weeks after I left, it was so difficult, that I can barel remember everything, only bits and pieces...I guess its my minds way of protecting me.
My ex wasnt a horrible guy, but he could have been so much better...but he was a very aggressive, maniulative man, who from what I can tell now, has a fear of growing old and alone, which is now why he is with someone he should not be with (too long to get into at the moment).
I would have left anyway, even though it was the hardest and scariest thing I have ever had to do....everyone says I was so strong, but sometimes, it doesnt seem that way to me.