sherrillee

Wow....

Ok, I dont think there is a domino effect, it just happens when it happens, just like when you fall in love...

I was in a similar situation as you. My ex was 13 years older than me, and at first it was all good...but I was really young...19 and naive...I thought the world rvolved around him, and at first I refused to see him as he really was...now granted, we had some good times, I will never regret those times, but that doesnt make the fact that he was emotionally abusive to me, and I didnt want to admit it, until toward the end when I relized that it was never going to get any better.....

I did fall in love with someone online, in fact I met him on SG, we were friends for a year, and things were growing betweeen us, and we didnt realize it at first until we met face to face, then it became perfectly clear.....ook, so I didnt get any complete me time away from all men, but I dont regret it...I left my husband for my boyfriend, we have been together for 6 months, and I have never been happier in my entire life!!


Now, you are ALWAYS...to some extent, going to have feelings of some sort for your ex, we all do...over time they change, but you always care, you spent so much time with that person, and trust me, I did, and still do at times, do the same thing...the what-if's "did I not try hard enough" "was it ever worth saving" its a natural response, so dont beat yourslef up over it...know its all ok, and this was the path you were meant to travel.

Yeah, I know a lot will be involved with the 3some thing, but we are taking it easy....

You arent the only one who has to do the DMV thing...I am already almost 2 weeks past due, plus I have to get my car smogged too...a helpful hint...go to the DMV in Los Gatos...you get in and out quicker, and its much nicer too.

...and no, I am not consulting a Dr. on the Paxil thing...I have no insurance anymore, and I am doing it carefully on my onw, I have done some research.

Hey, since your back in town, wanna meet up sometime for coffee?

thanks
the game went great Troy beat North Texas 45 to 7, and we are still at the top of the Sunbelt Conference

I think that now I have someone to work out with, the gym thing will be easier for me..I just hated going by myself, and I had no motivation...ok, well...I did want to lose weight, but the problem was, my ex-husband. He always made me feel shitty for bieng "fat"...right before we got together, I was tiny...115 lbs. (I dont even remember what thats like)..after we got together, I guesws I felt "secure" so I got comfy, and some wieght came on, not a ton, but a bit, nothig top worry too much about...but as the years dragged on, and I became less active, and was on medication that has had wieght gain as a side effect, I slapped on another 50...of course, my ex, bieng the ass that he is...always found a way top make me feel like shit...and at the time, I was trying to "find" myself, trying to boost my self-esteem, but he found a way to tear me down...it got to the point where I figured, well...he is supposed to love me no matter what and if he cant, then why bother...so no excersize, couch potato, internet all day long...eating way way way too much...it was horrible.

Now that I am with someone who truly loves me for me...I feel happier, and motivated...not just to lose some weight, but to get healthy...I have someone who is an active person, and I want to be able to keep up with him, and his 3 year old too!....The thing is, he has told me that even if I didnt lose any more wieght, he wouldnt care, he just wants me healthy and happy...and that he loves my body the way it is...thats been one hell of a road to get over when you have low self-esteem, but he has enabled me to finally fall in love wih my body the way that it is...he even told me that he loves my belly, and will be kind of sad to see it go...those things right there make me feel wonderful!....I do want to drop a bit more weight, but not a ton...I love my curves, and dont want to lose those...bieng healthy to me is more important, and I feel that the weight will come off as needed...I am not going to rush it, because I do want to be able to manage it well.

A long road, no doubt, but one I am ready for!

Hi sexy, thanks for the message...I am going to go check out those books!

Phoenixgirl told me about you so I thought I'd say hi.

Halloween is definatly the best holiday of the year. We're both trying to find a way to celebrate this year. Got any ideas?

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