Just to emphasise one thing which i didnt make clear on my last blog.
I have let others affect me alot over the past few months, a prime example has been someone called Ana White who to be blunt was a complete and utter Cunt a few weeks ago. 2 faced and utterly selfish is the best way I can describe her.
Everyone else I know have affected me in little ways here and there, but they are little ways which have added up to an overall big way. I really am getting back to where I used to be but I did look far too inwardly and deeply into other's reactions, responses and actions. I have had more of an effect in recent times on others, and it's a pain in the bloody neck. I am supposed to be ME!!! Consistent, calm and silly.
To everyone including one on here, I apologise if I have been a somewhat lost and confused individual. I'm nearly back to my old self, and I hope my honesty, which is not intended to affect anybody, is ok to share. No-one on SG that I know has let me down or made me feel angry. I have had issues which have built up but I don't feel it is the time or the place at the moment to talk to people about things that at the end of the day aren't important. What's important to me is that I am there for my friends and I am not making anyone feel down, negative or guilty.
I'll be back soon, in touch with all 6 of you left on my close friends list properly. But I will explain to some what has been going on recently, as a few of you are baffled by reactions and in the recent past over-reactions.
I may come across strangely, but I am being inward not outwards on here, the only person I am criticising is myself and I hope you all have a bit more patience in letting me sort out my helium mindset as I'm almost back into what I call "Mode" again. Some recent personal life changes have brought a huge perspective change into my life and I hope you all can be a little happier knowing me as some of you have found me an unknown quantity from day to day.
Oh by the way, 30 seconds to Mars is great. Thankyou so much for sharing the links with me the person who shall remain unknown but is deeply treasured for their patience, understanding and adventure in mind and spirit. You know who you are!
Camden Town was a great experience to walk through tonight and I am learning to tap into my adventurous side slowly but surely. Sorry all for being such an enigma this year, it's been one of those years you put down to experience. Luck is back on my side now and I hope to be commenting on waiters' hairstyles as held by coffee or that Pluracy is the Spelling disease. Let's eat Habbage and remember, Pube Tempers is watching!!!
I have let others affect me alot over the past few months, a prime example has been someone called Ana White who to be blunt was a complete and utter Cunt a few weeks ago. 2 faced and utterly selfish is the best way I can describe her.
Everyone else I know have affected me in little ways here and there, but they are little ways which have added up to an overall big way. I really am getting back to where I used to be but I did look far too inwardly and deeply into other's reactions, responses and actions. I have had more of an effect in recent times on others, and it's a pain in the bloody neck. I am supposed to be ME!!! Consistent, calm and silly.
To everyone including one on here, I apologise if I have been a somewhat lost and confused individual. I'm nearly back to my old self, and I hope my honesty, which is not intended to affect anybody, is ok to share. No-one on SG that I know has let me down or made me feel angry. I have had issues which have built up but I don't feel it is the time or the place at the moment to talk to people about things that at the end of the day aren't important. What's important to me is that I am there for my friends and I am not making anyone feel down, negative or guilty.
I'll be back soon, in touch with all 6 of you left on my close friends list properly. But I will explain to some what has been going on recently, as a few of you are baffled by reactions and in the recent past over-reactions.
I may come across strangely, but I am being inward not outwards on here, the only person I am criticising is myself and I hope you all have a bit more patience in letting me sort out my helium mindset as I'm almost back into what I call "Mode" again. Some recent personal life changes have brought a huge perspective change into my life and I hope you all can be a little happier knowing me as some of you have found me an unknown quantity from day to day.
Oh by the way, 30 seconds to Mars is great. Thankyou so much for sharing the links with me the person who shall remain unknown but is deeply treasured for their patience, understanding and adventure in mind and spirit. You know who you are!
Camden Town was a great experience to walk through tonight and I am learning to tap into my adventurous side slowly but surely. Sorry all for being such an enigma this year, it's been one of those years you put down to experience. Luck is back on my side now and I hope to be commenting on waiters' hairstyles as held by coffee or that Pluracy is the Spelling disease. Let's eat Habbage and remember, Pube Tempers is watching!!!
aesirr:
Thanks mate. Hope everything keeps getting better on your end.