SO I BASICALLY JUST WOKE UP AND FELT THE URGE TO BLOG ALTHOUGH I DONT REALLY KNOW WHERE TO START.
First of all, i'm pretty pretty nervous to fly for the first time since i was 7 years old. In 11 days, my sweet girlfriend and i will be flying to Romania to see my family and spend a nice week away. Over the years i've developped some kind of anxiety. I'd say it's a mix of things but basically claustrophobia leads them all. So let me tell you that being claustrophobic and stuck on a plane, even if it's only for 2 hours... not fun! But i guess i have to take this "chance" to prove myself that i can do whatever and go past the fear.
speaking of my "sweet girlfriend" my love life has been pretty good but somehow i always manage to push people away. I always let them know pretty clearly whats wrong but never the way around. And that needs to change. i hold too many gruges and it's not fair to those who are paying for my insecurities. i love her to death and i intend to keep her around for as long as possible. 9 months already ♥
I feel like i'm changing, maturing and getting rid of so many negative people who had been surrounding me for so long is the best thing i've ever done.
I feel more at peace with myself and they arent contaminating me anymore. i love it. I love my life.
When we get back from the motherland (Romania) i'll be moving in with my girlfriend. Let's just say that this new year will be quite interesting/lovely.
I always say that pictures speak louder than words;
I love you all. Thank you for always being there for me.
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